In May 2021 I changed jobs due to Covid. I went into a temporary lab assistant position which I hated.
Four weeks in, I developed severe bronchitis which took over a month to clear. During this time sick I realised I hated the job and quit with immediate effect in June.
I then had a period of unemployment until November when I got a job in a hospital.
I started in November 2021 but on 1st January 2022 I ended up in A&E with severe chest pain and was partially diagnosed with a heart condition (which I’m still waiting a full diagnosis for). Said heart condition kept me off work from January until April.
I then went back to work for around 6 weeks before going off again with mental health issues brought about by bullying and discrimination at work due to my health. I haven’t even back since.
I’m realising I can’t remain in my current role for several reasons:
1) its long hours and physically active. My heart condition means I’m too exhausted to do the role
2) the bullying and discrimination I’ve faced have massively triggered my social anxiety and depression and I can’t face going back after so long.
The problem is, I don’t know how I’m going to get another job given my huge absences.
Do I leave my currently role off my CV meaning I’ll have a gap of over 12 months to explain? Or do I include it knowing that any job offer might be rescinded once they find out my absence history and risk my current employer deciding to terminate me due to looking for a new role, and potentially finding myself without a job at all?
I’m only on SSP currently so I need to get a new role quickly as I can’t afford to live, and my employer is starting to put pressure on me to go back.
I’m also concerned that if I do leave my current role off my CV, I’ll be found out due to claiming SSP. The reason I’m concerned about this is because my previous position as a lab assistant said they don’t include absences in CVs, however my current employer found out about it and called me to discuss prior to offering me the role. She said it “flagged” on pre-employment checks. I did check with my old employer and she confirmed she didn’t mention my absence so I’ve no idea how my current employer found out.
Any advice? I feel completely lost as to how to leave my role.
I’ve been either unemployed or absent for over 12 months in the last 15 month period. I don’t have a clue how I can possibly find another role in this circumstance. I feel trapped in a job I physically can’t do and mentally can’t face.