Well second attempt and refused again. I have agoraphobia, panic disorder. I also have some other type of auto immune disease but because I can’t get to the doctors I don’t have a diagnosis. I do have a diagnosis of chronic urticaria and angioedema from when i had to go to hospital due to breathing problems and swelling of my throat. These are the symptoms of a bigger issue but my agoraphobia prevents me from going to medical places to get help.
Anyway, I’m suffering. I really am. Last time I got refused which was 3 years ago, I didn’t appeal as I decided I was going to end my life. Obviously I didn’t, I do believe that that was the start of my other illness issues, I was in a spiral of depression, hopelessness.
It took me such a long time to get to the point of going through this all over again, to risk putting myself in the vulnerable position of how I would cope with the possibility of being rejected again. And here I am.
I have no quality of life. I cannot go anywhere to work as I just can’t get there. I’m stuck.
I guess this is a cry for help. I can’t see a way out. I can’t focus enough to appeal and I wouldn’t know where to start.