Im so tired

I'm really struggling right now. I've faced many challenges in my life, growing up in a dysfunctional family, which has deeply affected me. There's a lot more to my story, but I find it hard to open up because I don’t want people to feel sorry for me. I often hear comments like, "I don’t know how you manage to stay on your feet after everything you’ve been through."

The truth is, I’m fighting with my mind constantly, and I’m exhausted. I feel so alone, and while my GP has helped me just about survive, I’m really tired. The changes in benefits are frightening me, and my mental health has spiraled. My OCD has taken over my body and mind, and I can’t travel anywhere because of my agoraphobia.

I sit here wondering why I haven’t received the help I need for decades. I’ve tried, but the last place I was sent to told me my issues were too complex, so I gave up. I just needed to vent because I feel lonely and scared.