Doing what Kier wants (Trigger warning)

Checking out

Not posted here in a while and the NAS website i dont like..

Since the Green Paper has come out my sleep has gotten worse.. My autism is flying out of control and a decision came to me today..

I was told time after time to apply for PIP and didnt do it because i could just about live off the money i was getting from ESA and knew the PIP assessment was biased against those with MH conditions and Neuro divergence so never bothered.

Now the government is bringing in these proposals (i dont fully understand them) and i am going to lose a support as well as be forced into the jobcentre when i am nowhere near ready.. I have autism Lv 2 and the psychiatrist and ASD specialist said i need substantial support (there is none in my area) and will be forced back into a society that i dont fit into.

I was thinking about all the stress thats going on with me with the changes and how i will never get the required points for pip so will be left in a worse position after the changes come into effect. And i thought i dont have to be here.. I legit can just cash out and take away all the stress and give Kier and Liz Kendal what they want.

And when i thought this the stress alleviated and i got some peace, its not going to happen in the next few months but knowing i am checking out brought peace to me, knowing i am not bothersome to the people around me, knowing i am not bothersome to the government any more is actually quite liberating..

Anyway i just thought i would share, you can use this as an example if its legible and i am wondering how many others are feeling like this and how many lives will be lost next year?

cheers