Had enough.

So me and my mother aren't the most communicative or people, my mother is 75 with health issues, I'm 36 with a myriad of documented mental health issues and so our neighbours have taken our lack of neighbourly communications to heart.

We've been feeding birds since we moved in but what we didn't know or realise that rats have been coming into the garden to eat the bird seed, so our neighbour video recorded it, my mother who didn't realise rats where there went outside and they argued, we got the usual Cornish slur "go back to where you come from" despite myself being born in Truro.

Our neighbour complained to the council, my mother talked to the environmental agency apologising for this and an agreement was made that no bird seed would be on the floor and there's no rats anymore.

So just today another Environmental person has said we've been deliberately feeding rats and has threatened to use legal action. So I lost the plot screamed at our neighbour to leave my mother alone, replied to the the other Environmental Person and re-stated what my mother said.

I'm completely **** off and had enough today, all of the frustrations of the cuts, all of the bashing of people screwed in the head came out today and I took my frustrations out on our neighbour who is loud, drunk and obnoxious. Trouble follows us wherever we go, Cornish people think we're foreigners and I've had enough of the go back to where you come from BS also, they wouldn't dare say that to anyone else.

I have nobody else to talk to, my GP's surgery doesn't take contact via the NHS app past 2PM and I'm not a phone calling guy. I ended up taking a pair of scissors to my arm, breaking the skin and then punching a wall full pelt. Self harm is what happens.