Green Paper Related Discussions

Hope all goes smoothly passerby ( as I’m sure it will). Feel free to ask anything else if you need to though cab we’re very good 👍

It fill’s me with dread all these reforms that are going on. The targeting of the disabled and elderly by Labour and Rachel Reeves is just a breech of our human rights, it negatively impacts our way of life, our will to live an independent life and above all else is just a sign of another government, looking after the rich while trampling on the poor, working class and backbone of the country.

I’ll say it brutally and honestly…

I’m working class through and through, worked both in the private and public sector as a Gardener & Estate Ranger, alongside working as a Support Worker for just over 20 years. I put in the graft where my national insurance and tax was hard earned both mentally and physically. My last job I put both my mind and body on the line. But almost five years ago, My mind and body cried enough is enough! Over the next five years I went down a very deep and dark rabbit hole 🐇 with my mental health, something I’ve battled since early childhood, alongside this my body said enough was enough with me being diagnosed with early onset osteoarthritis in both hips, arthritis in my back all to go alongside both shoulders. Alongside this my old lungs 🫁 said here you go have a dose of Asthma, then my loving wife gave me long covid and that turned into Long Covid. But like I have done since my first breath, I have just been resilient, fought tooth and nail against every obstacle and challenge placed in my way. In the past 15 years, I’ve lost four loved ones I was close to and never got to say my goodbyes to, I’ve cut out all contact with all of my family for the goodness of my health, I’ve been through two very hard and brutal relationships and marriages, I’ve cut all ties with friends as I got fed up with being the only one to make an effort to contact them, some have distanced themselves from me by taking my ex wife’s side of things and now every day, I live a lonely and pointless existence. My life has no value to it or purpose, I’ve started to pay for a non attendance cremation, I’ve sent my two nieces items I had inherited from my Grandfathers, I’ve filed for divorce from ex wife no2, I’ve donated all of my hiking and camping gear to a local grammar school, it’s like I’m getting my affairs in order and just letting go of who I once was.

My mental health is shot to pieces, I’ve become almost agoraphobic as I have only left my flat once since the end of February, I don’t want to talk to my neighbours as I now find people to judgemental and opinionated. I’m scared to go out or be seen in public. I’ve been on the waiting lists for both counselling and a social prescriber for eight months, My mental health team have me on the waiting list for psychology, I refuse to ring the emergency line in crisis as I just find it so condescending at times,I don’t find they help.

Up until 2020 I was on two medications a day, now I have to set an alarm four times a day to remind me to take all of this 😔 most of this is just for one week alone!
I think in all honesty I’m just counting down the days until I finally don’t wake up, however many days, weeks, months or years I have left.
I just have to accept the reason I am alone, is due to the poor choices, being unable to control my emotions or behavior, that I’ve left so many scarred people in my wake alongside many many many bad memories of me.
ive accepted that I’m not a good person, that so don’t like how I look, my body is just obese and ugly, I have never made peace with my mental and physical disabilities and probably never will. I guess someone like me didn’t deserve to survive being born in 1983 when so many other premature baby’s deserved to live but didn’t.

Sorry to hear what you are going through sounds like a very hard time. Social prescribing once you get a worker are a great service. You can ring 111 and speak to someone there if you don't want to chat to mental health team it's always good to talk though as it does help honestly 👍

I know you do and see you on the forum regularly . There’s certainly nothing funny about what we going through right now and we still have uc and pip reviews at the same time . I get brain fog at the best of times but I can’t think straight with all this extra stress . It definitely helps to get a few different opinions as the process is different depending on if you have ID etc .

Sometimes I don't get out what I mean due to how my brain works ( brain stem) so I apologise if I ever offend anyone it's never intentional brain don't operate well at best of times. When I'm stressed I struggle ☹️

Thank you, no just sometimes I write before my brain works and sometimes gets me into trouble, just been sat last few hours worrying about offending anyone. Thank you for that takes the worry of a bit 👍

Thank you and you to x

the point i was making is read the title of the thread i am sure when the mods are on duty in the morning a few posts will get deleted and then all you political experts can carry on