How is your day going?

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  • 66Mustang
    66Mustang Online Community Member Posts: 15,118 Championing

    @Grumpy1314

    It's funny as I can see myself in lots of what you write and I believe most of what you say is apt to be honest… I think people who would say otherwise are well meaning but don't (can't) empathise with your past experiences and stuff

    I only know you from like 5 posts but your posts tend to stand out and I'd consider it a loss if you weren't on here, for whatever that's worth

  • durhamjaide2001
    durhamjaide2001 Scope Member Posts: 14,677 Championing

    good evening everyone I have been asleep all afternoon not feeling very well again I was fine and full of energy this morning but it's got worse again as the day has done on I slept all afternoon waiting up just for lunch

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Online Community Member Posts: 477 Empowering

    if i sleep in the afternoon i wont be able to sleep in all night. it had happened before. anyway time is getting closer but just i will see the 9 pm film and maybe bedtime or maybe the next film…. but yes life is a struggle and mainly is boring living every day. positive is time passes quickly

  • durhamjaide2001
    durhamjaide2001 Scope Member Posts: 14,677 Championing

    that sometimes happens to me as well

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Online Community Member Posts: 477 Empowering

    i really have little hope from mental health team nor any other team .. in my case is mental and physical and none work. i just do not know what to do.. thinking more about natural medicine or trying not to have anything at all… i have been for a long time and none have been working. But i am considering a more natural approach. medication is not working or if it is is not working hundred per cent. anwyay… time to relax now.. or at least trying to until it is time to bed.

  • durhamjaide2001
    durhamjaide2001 Scope Member Posts: 14,677 Championing

    sorry to hear this I have been poorly for a month and I have little hope in the GP finding anything because when I was in South Africa the hospital couldn't find anything wrong with me as I went down hill again after being treated for a UTI

  • Santosha12
    Santosha12 Online Community Member Posts: 2,458 Championing
    https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/1061160#Comment_1061160

    So glad Fifi's back home safely and hope she sleeps well tonight and that you can rest. Take care xx

  • Grumpy1314
    Grumpy1314 Online Community Member Posts: 478 Empowering
    https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/1061200#Comment_1061200

    Thank You 💚

    I’m really struggling to keep my head above water, I’ve really abused my finances the past week by just ordering take away everyday of which I’m ashamed of. I have neglected to do any cleaning in the flat alongside neglecting my personal care to which I’m disgusted at. I guess living alone with nobody to talk to, have that someone there who you had a connection with and could just have a hug off them and say it will be alright is just brutal and hard for me to get over. I’m not only carrying the weight of no longer speaking to or seeing my family for ten years, but just carrying them in my heart and mind, alongside severing all ties with friends just due to being the one to reach out and ask how they are doing, instead of them turning around knowing how s**t I’m doing and saying everything ok with you? Living on my own for the last 11 months has been lonely, dark, brutal, cold and a rollercoaster.

    I’m just being mindful of what I say so as not to breach rules and regs.

    Private Counselling won’t touch me due to the complex nature of my mental health and the physical health conditions I have going on. Two days later a junior dr at the CMHT game me outdated advice on an autism place that’s long been closed down.

    I got asked recently if I have a Support Worker which I don’t, plus I couldn’t afford to pay for one and I doubt social services would event do anything.

    It’s hard for me to put things into words or get my point across due to the downturn in my mental health over the last five years alongside slowly losing my short term memory since being diagnosed with long covid in 2023.

    I can get so angry with both myself, the lack of support and the world on a whole. I am kind of my own Support Worker, which is ironic because I was a Support Worker up until 2020.

    I’m nervous about ringing Universal Credit tomorrow as they want to see me in person next Tuesday, but I’ve told them countless times on the journal for a home visit or a video call to prove I’d which I’ve done before. I am going to ring them tomorrow and make sure that I am so worked up on the phone that maybe my point will be accepted.

    I just don’t want to go into town as it terrifies me, just the thought of walking anywhere around the city centre due to gangs of youths in black and masks carrying machetes. I’m scared and worried day something could happen, which has been heightened to around four months ago someone was murdered just up the road and they arrested 11 people.
    I honestly don’t know what the future holds for me, what I can contribute and in all honesty what will happen to me if I lose mental capacity.

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