How is your day going?

Albus_Scope

Hope the scan goes ok @luvpink ❤️

Albus_Scope

Sounds very productive @Grumpy1314 ! Have you looked into any apps to help with bills and such? I also get terrible brain fog and always forget bill dates, so I always try to get them paid at the start of the month, but I'm also using an app called "Snoop" now (not officially endorsed by Scope, personal opinion, etc etc) and I've found it really useful with bills. I've not been caught out by any in months now. Plus it caught a direct debit I thought I'd cancelled last year.

Schildpad

I hope the scan goes well..

Amberpearl

Watching tv

Schildpad

nice cat.. the people came but my room did not need to be checked so they did not enter… but afterwards i just could not find the courage of leaving the room so i did not go to my wednesday s volunteering. i can do this in the place i volunteer but i could not do that in a proper job. and that is the problem….. so i do not think i will be ever prepared… have a good day…. and i really would like to be prepared for to do some kind of job but i am not sure it will ever happen.. anyway.. enjoy the day.. weather is not great… it might rain…

Schildpad

Can not wait for tonight to go to bed.

66Mustang

@Schildpad

I think I get what you mean about work. I often get the same where if I'm made to do something, or if someone is counting on me, I find it harder to do what I could easily have done if it were left to my discretion

It's like if I promise to meet someone somewhere at a certain time it's suddenly really hard working out how I'll get there but if I was just going there in my own time it would be easier

Amberpearl

Same as every day

Take my meds feed and clean cats trays

Watch tv

Alone

Still waiting for the cardiology appointment

66Mustang

@Grumpy1314

I don't really agree*, it goes without saying, though I kinda get the impression you don't either deep down?? Like if you really thought it was true you'd just disappear without a trace but you're posting on here so you must realise there are people who think you're worth listening to

It's weird as I get the same about my self worth but I don't like hearing someone else say stuff I'd happily say about myself 😆 my support worker told me to not say things about myself that I'd not say to a friend, that kind of helped me think about stuff a bit differently

*actually I agree with a lot like the mental system and the politics but not the overall conclusion about yourself

Schildpad

Night night . I just hope tomorrow I will feel better...

WhatThe

66Mustang, Like if you really thought it was true you'd just disappear without a trace but you're posting on here so you must realise there are people who think you're worth listening to

I'm not sure I agree. It strikes me as a little insensitive even if you mean well.

WhatThe

The guy is truly amazing. WE can see that. Nobody should be asked to justify why they are here though. I hope you know that I mean well, too.

Elvisdog

@Grumpy1314 I feel quite teary reading your post, I recognise myself in your feelings of despair, alot of us on this site, will have likely felt like you at some point in time, especially when you have a mental health diagnosis.

Im sure you are not un lovable. I read your posts on hear. Yesterday you talked about your passion for war and history memorabilia. I didn't post, as it isn't anything I'd understand much about. But it was nice to read your posts and see a shared passion with another person on here.

I think we all have up and down days and feel really down at times. You have been through some very hard times. Give yourself time to heal and do what you can, when you can.

You have shared about your plants and getting your flat sorted out, small steps but some positive ones.

@66Mustang & @WhatThe i don't think any one, was meaning to be insensitive. We are a bunch of people who all have different diagnosis's, challenges and hardships. We just need to try and understand that we all have different ways of saying things. I think the fact we are reading each other's post's shows we care.

P.s I loved the cat picture. Your advice for bills was a good share too.

Im sure i made my bed, before she sneaked in.

Bluebell21

Good morning everyone.

Amberpearl

Good morning all

My hands are so dry

II suffer from severe dry skin

Yes I have steroid creams

Fingers bubble like blisters and split open and crack and bleed

Very painful atm

Catherine21

Its so hard really hard and the beast of bpd every minute of everyday emotions changed and unless someone experience bpd rage would never understand how it takes over your body mind soul hold onto what you invision step by step you achieved so much over the last few days those horrible inner voices calling you names are not real and don't apply to you it's hard to be kind to ourselves your so kind to people on here we value you very much

66Mustang

@Grumpy1314

I'm glad to see you on here

Sorry I can't write much as I'm struggling now

I don't want to make a fuss or make @WhatThe feel bad but just want to be honest as that's the best way to get true support from people… but it's knocked my (I realise very delicate) self-worth reading that I was insensitive for saying that you are worth listening to

I'm really sorry for coming across like a horrible person but I don't understand how I was saying something bad

All I know is I was saying it because I wanted you to know you're a worthy person and if anyone thought I was horrible I guess I can't do anything about that, as someone who's going through similar I don't like writing generic posts, I want to write honest stuff to actually help

66Mustang

Feel a bit better writing that as I know @WhatThe is an understanding person and will probably write something nice back but I'm just sorry for being so horrible, there was no intent and I think intent is what makes truly malicious people

66Mustang

@Grumpy1314 your whisky barrels look lovely

Just an idea, and it'd be one of those things that only a few people would "get" but thosse who noticed would chuckle …….. but what about planting barley in one of them? 😂 Barley is quite hardy and low-maintenance I believe, and it's actually quite pretty

Schildpad

Morning. I feel tired very tired and also I am very scared. Yet another day..