Single, disabled parent

Well what can I say, being ill sucks.

Parenting a child while disabled and ill. Seeing your past partner move on and enjoy his future.

I had not always been disabled, we met I was perfectly healthy.

He left when the going got tough, I just get to bring up his son.

My family really don't get it, they forget I'm not who I used to be.They were never really close to begin with, my parents who were a support system when my child was small died over the past 3 years.

I'm happy that my ex husband is happier with his new life.

But it makes me wonder, how do I begin again. No real friends, just aquatintence. No real family, just my son and he's a teenager.

I miss me, the one who danced at the clubs. The one who went for walks with my dog. The friend who was the life and soul. Now I scroll on social media, post and it sucks.

When relationships ended in the past I went out, I got blotted. Danced till my feet were sore., nursed a hangover. Went to work & then got on with life.

I really don't know what I'm doing anymore. This so new to me.