Hi, my name is Neill

Hi, I'm new on this site and stumbled across this whilst looking for "I don't know what" I just feel so alone even though I live with my wife and three children, I have been diagnosed with clinical depression with psychotic tendencies for the last ten years and am heavily medicated, approximately 2 years ago I was having lower limb pain in my left leg and was given several treatments which all failed and in September had  my left leg amputated below the knee, due to osteo milytus (not sure about the spellin)whilst it had the desired effect as I no longer have pain in that limb, I feel so "Different" and alone.
Whilst I realize that my body has had a major operation, and will need time to readjust to what has happened and am currently in a wheelchair (my first fitting for my prosthetic limb is 20/12/2017) I am able to push myself around and although there has been an increase in disability awareness over the last 10-15 years I find services for those of us that are differently abled are treated i.e. pavements I live in a major town in Wiltshire where the pavements have been dropped so pedestrians, prams, and pushchairs can go up and down pavements with ease but find these very steep for my wheelchair, also on pavements we have trees every 25 meters or so and where they look beutiful and  have been there so many years that the roots are growing up through the pavement and is making even the simplest of journys difficult, so am feeling very trapped at the momment, my family try to help and whilst I don't want to sound like a moaning minny, I have a lovely Mobility car, however, I am the only driver and it has not been used since my operation in September, it's am automatic transmition but I still require help getting the wheelchair in and out of the car.
Also, why is it people with different abilities are ripped off, i,e, I required a simple cushion for the wheelchair we have 14 disability shops with prices from £36.99 for a basic cushion to £74.99 for a memory foam one, these places should hang there heads in shame.
So whilst I came on here to talk to like-minded (and bodied) People I've ended having a rant and rave about just how difficult I'm finding it coming to terms with what has happened over the last few years, For those who can offer advice a very big warm "Thank you" and to those whom I have upset I am truly sorry I didn't mean for that to be the case.