Hi, my name is Tormented58!

I am sick disabled with bad mental health I have a mental health team behind me writing to my assessment which due  I didn't have to go to boards and hoping I don't have to this time but reading the stories of people dying is worrying me. Has the Tory Government really this cruel as to stop my benefits I live in Wales and don't see disabled living on the streets yet  I cant eat and drink all the time because of my muscles stopped working and my sphincter muscles is dead. I have arthritis in my hip and I had a breakdown cutting my faces and hurt others I know that's bad but i completely had a mental breakdown. I am isolated for many years now but worried I will be past fit to work  I get dehydration every week and struggling to eat foods. Can you advise me. My therapist and nurse wrote letters with my assesment forms will that help  I am on my wits end as I have nobody close to talk to  I had a very abusive childhood will every kind of abuse I am unstable around people as my nerves can't stand being around people  
  Advise would be grateful