Karen2401

Hello i wonder if you can help me -im on the edge of a very steep cliff and a letter i received in post today has pushed me over the edge - i turned 58 last week have suffered lifelong anxiety depression social phobia body dysmorphia and other conditions - have zero quality of life havent wanted to be here for a longtime my ex left for someone else because i couldnt sit in a restaurant never.mind go on holiday - ive never so much as been on a plane  ive accepted my limitations- my wonderful children are 25 and 34 - i couldnt even attend their graduation/wedding which destroyed me but they understood - 2 years ago i stopped eating/drinking completely - even water for 3 months because i wanted to die when the ambulance came i was hours from death was hospitalised with severe acute kidney injury dehydration and malnutrition - i had 24/7 pysychiatric care at my bedside & had support of crisis homecare when i got home - a social worker helped me get on benefits - ive recently been re awarded esa and put on support group but after a home assessment for pip renewal i was awarded zero points despite fact im housebound/a total recluse with no life and my arthritis is much worse -id been standing on the edge of a very steep cliff and this has pushed me over the edge-the events ive mentioned are just the tip of the iceberg ive wanted to be gone for a longtime and this has confirmed that no matter how hard i try the world doesnt want me  - if it wasnt for my children id be long gone - ive placed a mandatory reconsideraton based on my recently awarded SG ESA  but my worry is that my esa will reduce/stop - i dont have any fight left in me - please advise