Preliminary hearing

Just had a 2-hour hearing and it did not go well at all. I was completely out of my depth and when asked for responses from the judge I felt like they were not correct. I felt like words were being put in my mouth in a way, or my words were misunderstood and I wanted to shout out no that is not the case, that's not what I wanted to articulate and it's not what I am trying to explain and it all seemed to get twisted. I don't want to be perceived as a liar, but the meeting was long and at times rushed due to the time limit.  From the judge's tone, or how I feel the judges tone was and off the cuff comments I feel I have already lost this case. Now they are holding a preliminary hearing for me to prove my disability and they are asking to extend the 3-day hearing to four days. It's a whole mess and I feel exhausted, defeated and a whole host of other things. It's too much given my state of health. I wish I had the money for a lawyer.