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  • cupcake88
    cupcake88 Posts: 1,412 Trailblazing
    Hi how is every one ? Please keep safe in the storm stay in and keep warm . I just took some of my emergency medicine and got the tv turned up really loud . Because I’m feeling very anxious . Thanks for the info bout my pip . That’s very reassuring thanks ladies . 

    I’m just trying to get threw each day at a time it’s a massive struggle . I’m gonna speak to the nurse who does my injection bout how I want to speed up the 
    change of nurse I would like 
    her to be my nurse . 

    The wind is sounding really bad I think the rest of my fence will be blown away lol x 
  • chiarieds
    chiarieds Online Community Member Posts: 16,830 Championing
    Hi @cupcake88  - I woke up to snow, but relatively little wind; that's changing now! I think using the TV is a good idea!! Just about time to shut the curtains, etc. to muffle the sound too.
    It would be great if you could have the nurse that does your injections as your nurse all the time. You might argue that that would give better continuity of care as she'd see you more often, & would therefore know you better.
    Stay warm & safe; we'll all be OK, xx :)
  • cupcake88
    cupcake88 Posts: 1,412 Trailblazing
    @chiarieds.   oh is there snow up your way ? Hope we don’t get any snow up this way the winds are just terrible , I’m not in a good place again my dear friend . 

    I think I would feel better with any new nurse one that actually cares and who is good I’m scared I’m going to end up back in hospital 

    x
  • Tori_Scope
    Tori_Scope Scope Posts: 12,464 Championing
    I also think turning up the TV is a good idea @cupcake88 :) I used to do that when I was scared by noises when home alone. I've had my music on while working today, especially now the wind has picked up. Are you watching anything good on TV at the moment? 
  • cupcake88
    cupcake88 Posts: 1,412 Trailblazing
    @Tori_Scope.  I have just been watching documentaries bout mental illnesses very interesting. I’m not feeling to good at all at the moment x how are you 
  • chiarieds
    chiarieds Online Community Member Posts: 16,830 Championing
    Hi @cupcake - we had snow & ice first thing, which thankfully melted fairly soon. Don't be scared; you're doing great, even if it might not seem so at all times. You're such a fighter, my lovely friend, & I can't say how proud I am of you in being so, & continuing to be so.
    As ever, keep yourself safe, & much love & hugs, xx
  • cupcake88
    cupcake88 Posts: 1,412 Trailblazing
    @chiarieds.   Thanks so much for your kind words I don’t feel very strong at all I feel very low and letting my mental illness get the best of me . Thanks for having me in your thoughts and prayers means a lot x
  • chiarieds
    chiarieds Online Community Member Posts: 16,830 Championing
    You will always be in my thoughts & prayers @cupcake88 - stay strong my dear & lovely friend, & do so hope tomorrow is a better day for you, xx
  • Ross_Alumni
    Ross_Alumni Scope alumni Posts: 7,611 Championing
    Hi @cupcake88

    How are you? 

    I do hope that we've seen the last of the storms for a little while now, it didn't seem too bad in our part of the world, either that or I managed to sleep through the worst of it. It sounds as though the clean up after the event is going to be difficult all around the country though, the disruption to transport alone has been quite extensive.

    Sorry to hear that you're still feeling very low, but I echo other members that you are doing very well in our eyes, stay strong and I hope you manage to enjoy your weekend :) 
  • cupcake88
    cupcake88 Posts: 1,412 Trailblazing
    As most of you know the snow triggers my illness and it’s feels like the worlds ending when I see even abit of snow I was on the phone 3 times to crisis no help they all said there get a support call from the crisis pad for me 
    as I won’t go out in this weather , 

    I dunno why I feel so suicidal it’s a horrible feeling every day . And it causes others around me to worry bout me . I was gonna call a ambulance tonight but what can they do I’ll be assessed by the mental health team and I’ll 
    prob end up in there assessment hospital which is just awful I couldn’t cope well with being back in hospital x 
  • Alex_Alumni
    Alex_Alumni Scope alumni Posts: 7,538 Championing
    Hello again @cupcake88 I'm sorry to hear you're struggling again. How are you this morning? Is your partner able to be with you? 

    If you feel in danger the very best thing to do is call 999 to help yourself safe. 

    I'm going to send you a pm now, make sure you keep an eye out for it :) You can message me back to get the ball rolling for some extra support.
  • Lou67
    Lou67 Online Community Member Posts: 8,711 Championing
    Morning cupcake 

    I really hope you’ve had a decent sleep and your feeling a bit better.

    I hope they get your nurse changed ASAP as it will make a difference to you.

    Pamper yourself today and keep yourself safe.

    Always in my thoughts and prayers ❤️
  • chiarieds
    chiarieds Online Community Member Posts: 16,830 Championing
    Thinking about you @cupcake88 - & hoping you may be having a better day. I feel that any extra support Scope can offer would be a good thing, so do try & reply to them. Lots of gentle hugs my friend, xx
  • cupcake88
    cupcake88 Posts: 1,412 Trailblazing
    edited February 2022
    Hi every one there is nothing any one can do for me I’m gonna go to a few shops and [removed by moderator] end my life because I’m sick of this feeling 24/7 xx i want to thank you all for your support x 
  • Lou67
    Lou67 Online Community Member Posts: 8,711 Championing
    Cupcake.
    Please answer scopes messages, to see what help they can offer you.

    You need to phone 999 I no you probably don’t want to hear this, but I think your going to have to go back into hospital, as things just seem to be getting worse for you.

    Please reach out for the help you need.

    Take care ❤️
  • Alex_Alumni
    Alex_Alumni Scope alumni Posts: 7,538 Championing
    Hello @cupcake88 please have a look at the pm I sent and the email this morning, and call 999 immediately if you feel in danger. 

    I'll message you again now, please keep an eye out for it.
  • Tori_Scope
    Tori_Scope Scope Posts: 12,464 Championing
    Hi @cupcake88 :) How are you feeling today? I hope that you managed to get through last night, and get some sleep. Did you manage to contact anyone for support? 
  • chiarieds
    chiarieds Online Community Member Posts: 16,830 Championing
    Hello @cupcake88 - my dear, dear friend. I've just seen your last message, & I'm sorry if I'm being selfish, but like all your friends here, I need to know you're safe, please.
    As I said yesterday, as did Lou, please see what extra support the Scope team can offer, which they've been offering for a while; we're all hoping that this may positively help.
    There's always something that can be done to help; always.
    Please keep yourself safe for your partner especially, & all your friends here; you matter to so many people, xx

  • L_Volunteer
    L_Volunteer Community Volunteer Adviser, Scope Member Posts: 7,922 Championing
    Hi @cupcake88

    I can only reiterate what everyone else has said! We are here for you and will do anything we can. I promise! Reaching out my arms for a hug if nothing else  <3
  • cupcake88
    cupcake88 Posts: 1,412 Trailblazing
    Hi every one I have covid so I can’t go for my injection today I’m not feeling great at all I’ll reply properly to every one once I feel better x 

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