Worst Day So Far and Last Day Of Year

ResilientNeighbour7

Amongst many hardships:)my entire body and scalp is still plagued fully with itchy, congested, painful m, disgusting, stubborn lesions; hyperpigmentation; full body pains; microsleeps so not getting anything done; very depressed to say least; the coughing; the vicious downstairs neighbour; having no life quality; even with food and clothing and access to data I’m not thriving; my chest and throat are still hurting too; the scum ha downstairs is still making asb noise; i have no real safety here; yesterday someone knocked my bins over again; have not one member family nor friend; the clutter that is completely unmanageable; poverty and being in my late 20s and still rotting not a life at all ; better off dead;nobody can relate; nothing I listen to or read or see in daily encounters is relatable; I’m in such a dark and low place ; I hate my life; I don’t even have any skills or clarity in order to focus; why am I such a tragedy? I think one of the worst things is the utter lack of progress physically,mentally,financially; no money to spend on required items nor bills; I feel extremely marginalised; prayer and meditation hasn’t helped either; where do I start and what do I do? I feel worse than before. How do I fix this ? Will things ever get better? Why am I in such a dire situation ? What have I ever done so wrong?