Alone

easy

Hi everyone. Today I went to the funeral of my husbands best friend.
He was a biker and arrived in a side car, something I have never seen before.
I know he would have loved to see this himself.
Lots of old friends where there, it was quite touching.
Now I am back home and on my own again. I am feeling very lonely, and sad, like all my life has gone. So I have come on here to say "hello" to you as I hope you are my new friends.

Sandy_123

Evening @easy sorry you are feeling alone, I'm always here if you want someone to talk to here and pm. 
Sounds a nice funeral, when my bf died he was escorted by about 25 bikers. It was a nice sight. Also I didn't know until then, but only the  head  biker is allowed in the church or crematorium as its considered bad luck, if they all go in, the vicar told us all.  

You've always got freinds here 

Oxonlady

Hi @easy, I often feel as you do.
But on this forum there are many kind, friendly people who will engage with you and make you feel that you are not alone but part of this community. 
I hope that you will feel able to join in and feel included. Wishing you all the best. 

Grinchy

sorry for the loss of your friend, sounds like a nice service, sorry you are feeling alone, this place is great, i have a few people i consider friends on here, take care and post when you feel up to it x

Strawberry1

Despite maybe having people around  I can still feel lonely.  

Sandy_123

Just checking in @easy how are you today

SueHeath

Morning @easy i was so sorry to read this today darling, please don't feel alone, a few of us are always here and you know the site has lots going on, big hug of me x

Hannah_Alumni

Hello @easy

I'm so sorry for your loss. I wanted to reach out as you are not alone.

If there is anything we can do at Scope to help you, please let us know. You can always email us on community@scope.org.uk. 

Starlingbird

Hi @easy, it sounds like your husband's best friend had a great send off and that there were many people there who thought a lot of him. 

I think funerals can make us assess our own life sometimes. I am sure that being alone when you got home would have been difficult as you'd have been left with thoughts of sadness and loss. I hope you have managed to distract yourself a little. 

Sending you kindness and all best wishes xx

durhamjaide2001

Hi @easy I just wanted to check in and see how you are feeling today. 

easy

Thank you everyone for all your kindness and caring, it really has been a comfort to know I am not alone but among friends. @Sandy_123 Thank you for telling me that just one of the bikers goes into the crematorium, I did not know that. When the service was going on I could hear a humming noise in the background, is it possible this could have been the bikers outside running there engines?
Thankyou all once again.
Easy

Sandy_123

Evening @easy hope your feeling better now, yes I would think that was the noise you heard. 

easy

@Sandy_123 thanks so much it makes it so much easier to think that is what the noise was. 
I have no idea why it should make a difference but it does.
Easy

Sandy_123

Its good to know   the answer when something is bothering you. Have you had much snow

easy

@Sandy_123 Yes I am so glad I know now.
We had a lot of snow overnight wed- thurs but it went about 1ish on thursday.
Thanks again

Alex_Alumni

Hi there @easy just catching up, hope you're doing okay today, and glad to see you're feeling supported by the lovely community here  

Do you still have snow today?

easy

Thanks @Alex_Scope, Iam feeling stronger today.

Alex_Alumni

Glad to hear this @easy you know where we are if you need anything!