i am so lost

iammisunderstood

Hi Guys, i'm new here, I don't know if this is the right catagory

so I have a condition called klippel-trenaunay syndrome (KTS for short) it causes my chronic pain in my left leg, and this condition has been getting a lot worse over the last couple of years (im 27), so when I was growing up I have had an unstoppable love for science and specifically chemistry, I studied really hard and obtained a masters degree in it, I loved working in a lab and I loved it so much that I did a PhD, a few years into it my health got worse and I was really struggling to complete the lab work (there is a lot of standing and walking involved) this seriously affected my mental health. My PhD funding has now completed and I am coming to the end of my write-up period, I am well behind and I am worrying I will not be able to submit my thesis. I have also started a new job that requires me to work in a lab (i haden't realised how bad my condition actually is as its variable) I am struggling with that too as I am in so much pain. now I am now at a point where I don't even really want to do chemistry anymore, but it's the only thing I am qualified in. I am now really in the pits of despair about what to do with my life now. I fear whats going to haappen is I quit my job and fail my PhD, and i'm really scared of what my future holds. Has anyone else been in a similar situation to me?

Sandy_123

Hi @Misunderstood welcome to the forum it might be worth discussing it with your employer so you can both find ways to make it easier for you to do your work. Highlight what is causing your problems and see if you can both come up with a solution.
Also with your PhD speak to someone there and highlight the problems you are having and see if they can help you too. 

C_J

Hi and welcome to forum I fully agree with what @Sandy_123 has said communication is important as if they are unaware then they can't help or support you. I hope you can get this sorted and gain your PhD.

66Mustang

Just to add I think you need to be aware you are not alone and there is support available whether it's from your university or other professionals.

I would also say worst case scenario, you fail the PhD, you still already have a fantastic qualification in the Master's, and are already extremely employable.

I can imagine employers would headhunt you down, rather than you have to look for the work!!!!!

iammisunderstood

the thing is, I have spoken to everyone i can, my employer wants me to tell him what they can do, but i have no idea myself, there is just way too much walking, standing, carrying heavy things and bending down i just cant manage it 

Hannah_Alumni

Hello @iammisunderstood

Welcome to the community!  

I echo what everyone has said about speaking with your employer and asking your professor for an extension. I am so sorry to hear you are in pain. Can I ask, do you update your GP or specialist about this? I would encourage you to speak to them, to try and ease that pain for you. 

I understand when an illness makes you not want to be, what you've worked so hard for. I've been there. Many in the community have been there. Have you looked at what equipment or support you can use/get to help aid you in chemistry? Maybe knowing what is available will help mentally get that passion back in doing what you love?

I hope the community can be a support for you. Please don't hesitate to reach out if you feel we can help you in any way.