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Struggling with social anxiety

Marie88

I've been struggling with social anxiety for many years, since childhood. I'm now in my 30s and haven't got any friends. I did have a couple of friends a few years ago but we lost contact as I found it really difficult to stay in touch. I was bullied at school from an early age and I lack self esteem and worry so much about what others think of me. I'm not very good with words or expressing myself. I may have a language disorder and I'm really slow at processing and thinking. I find it hard to talk about topics, I never seem to have an opinion on things. I often don't underatand what people are taking about and I feel stupid. I manage to work part time but find it so hard talking to colleguges, I've been in my job over a year and still can hardly speak to them. It's pretty lonely not having any friends and I feel so invisible in society. I just dont know how to change. Thanks to anyone that reads this.

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L_Volunteer

I have read your post and hear you @Marie88. It sounds like you have a really difficult time in social situations. I would, firstly, like to say we are all your friends. I think we are a supportive and friendly space and, hopefully, you will find the same. Although my social difficulties may not be due to the same reasons as you - I am autistic - I do find we are an understanding and empathetic bunch of people.

Is there anything, in particular, which might make all of this feel more manageable for you at the moment? Obviously, it does not get better overnight but I recognise how heavy all of this can feel and your feelings really matter to us and so do you. Please don't hesitate to let us know if there's anything we can do to help. Otherwise, at the very least, I can say we are all here with you and listening to you

Jimm_Alumni

You'll find many people here have had similar experiences as you @Marie88. I know there's a bunch of people, including myself, who are happy to get to know you and become friends

. Talking online in a forum setting like this one gives you the time to respond, there's no rush in needing to think of exactly what to say. I find it more relaxing. I know not everyone feels the same way as I do but I think online friends can be just as good as in-person friends.

Are there any topics you do like? For instance, I love flags. I can pretty much identify every country flag there is and even some non-country flags. It's a topic I certainly don't get to talk about with others a lot because it's quite niche! Do you have anything like that?

life

Biblioklept said:

So I either end up talking over people, finishing their sentences for them, or forgetting what I wanted to say or becoming too anxious to say anything so seem weird and quiet.

This is me. I've been told so many times that I talk over people that I just stay quiet instead. I finish their sentences too.

life

Lol yes I agree @Biblioklept.

I think it's that because I'm on my own for months at a time that when I do see family or other people I can't help myself from doing it 😂

Jimm_Alumni

For me the finishing other peoples sentences was a symptom of my ADHD. Something I really had to work on. I wouldn't even think about it and it really made me anxious. I still do it now and then, still improvements to be made.

Hope you're doing okay @Marie88!

Marie88

Thanks so much for your replies, I really appreciate it

I’m sorry as I’m not very good at knowing what to say in response so I hope this sounds ok!

@L_Volunteer I don’t really know I guess I’d like to find help for my anxiety and other issues I’m struggling with. I suspect I might have adhd or dyslexia or something else. As well as my processing and language issues, I was really bad at maths at school and still am but I never had an assessment and I can’t afford one privately.

@Biblioklept I’m not great at talking to people at work but there are a couple of people I feel more comfortable with so I try and make conversation with them. It’s still hard but I do things like offer to make people at work hot drinks or offer to give them a hand with certain tasks. I think people at work think I’m nice but they do comment on how quiet I am.

@Jimm_Scope I’m not too bad thanks. Yeah, I find writing better than speaking, it does take me ages to come up with replies and I do struggle a bit with what I want to say but there is a lot less pressure and than in person. That’s really cool you learned so many flags, how long have you been doing that? I don’t really have anything like that but I do enjoy drawing but I don’t do it all that much because of work and other life things but I would like to do it a bit more.

Jimm_Alumni

@Marie88 Since I was a kid, I used to sleep with an atlas book under my pillow, it had all the flags of every country too.

What kind of things do/did you like to draw? I've seen people in my town's church park often drawing sketches of the old church. I never could draw but always been amazed by people who could.

hyancinth

I rarrely go on here but Im listening to a Youtube documentary this very moment as Im doing other tings. It spurred me to go on here (to post for myself) and Ive found your post.
Its.... Silentstu Social anxiety: Afraid of people.
Its 80s but the biochemistry information is still current. I think the bullying you had compounded what may be inherent.
I cant give you any advice. Im suffering myself. Im so negative Id say stay away from people. People are monsters for the most part. And you being sensitive they will hurt you more than tough skinned, gregarious hahaha Im great types.

Marie88

Hi, sorry I’ve taken ages to reply, I get quite overwhelmed at times with what to say!

@Jimm_Scope oh cool 😎 I enjoy drawing animals, botanicals and landscapes. Art was my favourite subject at school but I didn’t do any drawing for years, until lockdown where I started watching artists on YouTube and following tutorials. I don’t do outdoor sketching or anything as I worry about people looking! I must get back into it, hopefully when things calm down a bit.

@hyancinth I’m sorry you’re going through this too, hope you’re okay. Thanks for letting me know about the documentary on YouTube, I’ll have a look. I struggle with being so negative and always thinking the worst, I guess it’s another reason I find it hard to talk to people.

Anyway sorry not sure what else to say but I hope you’ve both had a good weekend 😊

life

Hi @Marie88 hope you're feeling OK. I don't really see people, mostly on my own.

I've been feeling down at the moment because I want to be around people but paranoid and scared most of the time. I get anxious just thinking about being around people. Im on meds but still feel this way.

I hope you start feeling better 🤞

Hannah_Alumni

Hello @Marie88

If you love art, we have a thread called KaleidoScope: Our own gallery for members' art work, crafts and photographs that you may like to join in with

birdwatcher

I understand what you mean. Due to mobility problems I've not been out of the house on my own for over two years. I've got a friend takes me to the local shop sometimes but his backs been playing up . I don't want , or expect, him to push my wheelchair. We've not been out for weeks
I'm lucky I've still got friends call in to see me . But when it comes to going out I'm quite happy stopping at home with my dog. To be honest the idea of going out now makes me uneasy even though I know I'm safe with my friend. Does that sound strange?
I did wonder if I've got some sort of anxiety? I don't fret about it. I'm just happier in my own home than I am out of it

Maurice123

@birdwatcher

I am a bit luckier than you as I have a friend who takes me out in my car twice a week, but I can sympathise with your wish to stay at home . Going out is stressful as you are so dependent on your friend to be careful. I have twice fallen backwards due to people letting go of my wheelchair. I hit the pavement once which knocked me out for a while. On another occasion I went backwards down a step and fell thinking somebody was holding the wheelchair. friends need to be aware. You may also meet people who think it would be easier for them if you were not there. The wheelchair gets in their way. Do you have someone to walk your dog? I can recommend the Cinnamon Trust in Cornwall. If they cannot help they can definitely suggest who can.