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I can write a book talking about my experiences, if it can help others understand and appreciating themselves.
My refuge is art. I have tried moving away from it many times, that is because it cost so much to maintain and practice but also it is so messy!
I have always been described as messy. I have to say that I was so tired of hearing that, I have lost so many opportunities because I forgot this or that, I could not remember where to I put this or that... I decided to put order in my life...And I have been trying for over 10 years... and I am still messy but God I am creative...a real problem solver (though still finding problems where there is probably none... a complicated mind indeed).
However, I am trying to tell you that I feel good being messy with my hands, my body, my mind. I create things that all the time. My creativity is in visual arts, yes...but also in find solution to problems...writing...I can write about anything...so description and so deep. I mean, I wrote a poem about my dear cat in June...all so funny. I never knew my style, in writing was so humorous, until then. And I love the piece that I wrote.
I tried to write about my life, my bibliography but, each time I did, I would end up more depressed... Unless, there was no I in the writing... I can not say I when I talk about me. I have to say she...That is my observation and that is who I am. I really do not care about what people think no more. I feel good speaking and writing like that, and I am hurting no one by doing so... when talking about personal matters, I will keep on saying SHE!
Back to the matter at hand. I am creative and I love being messy, I love my time doing art. I can not draw like all these artists that do all these perfect portraits, perfect landscape... no, what I draw and paint is all abstract and I am the only one to understand it. I tried to fit in and do things the academic way but I get bored and I bit myself up for not being able to do so. Now, 58 years, I am accepting my ways as my survival kit. The thing that takes my mind away from my struggles, away from the two legged things that look like me, were born like me, speak like me, walk like me, sleep like me, wash like me... do similar things to me but are so far away from me. I respect them, I look at them, I listen to them, I acknowledge them, but through my art, I happily escape them. As I always say to my children.... I appreciate you, I listen to you, I acknowledge you, I cherish you, I love you and I even adore you...but don't get it twisted.....I LOVE ME FIRST and my art.
So, tell me, what is your escapism?
My refuge is art. I have tried moving away from it many times, that is because it cost so much to maintain and practice but also it is so messy!
I have always been described as messy. I have to say that I was so tired of hearing that, I have lost so many opportunities because I forgot this or that, I could not remember where to I put this or that... I decided to put order in my life...And I have been trying for over 10 years... and I am still messy but God I am creative...a real problem solver (though still finding problems where there is probably none... a complicated mind indeed).
However, I am trying to tell you that I feel good being messy with my hands, my body, my mind. I create things that all the time. My creativity is in visual arts, yes...but also in find solution to problems...writing...I can write about anything...so description and so deep. I mean, I wrote a poem about my dear cat in June...all so funny. I never knew my style, in writing was so humorous, until then. And I love the piece that I wrote.
I tried to write about my life, my bibliography but, each time I did, I would end up more depressed... Unless, there was no I in the writing... I can not say I when I talk about me. I have to say she...That is my observation and that is who I am. I really do not care about what people think no more. I feel good speaking and writing like that, and I am hurting no one by doing so... when talking about personal matters, I will keep on saying SHE!
Back to the matter at hand. I am creative and I love being messy, I love my time doing art. I can not draw like all these artists that do all these perfect portraits, perfect landscape... no, what I draw and paint is all abstract and I am the only one to understand it. I tried to fit in and do things the academic way but I get bored and I bit myself up for not being able to do so. Now, 58 years, I am accepting my ways as my survival kit. The thing that takes my mind away from my struggles, away from the two legged things that look like me, were born like me, speak like me, walk like me, sleep like me, wash like me... do similar things to me but are so far away from me. I respect them, I look at them, I listen to them, I acknowledge them, but through my art, I happily escape them. As I always say to my children.... I appreciate you, I listen to you, I acknowledge you, I cherish you, I love you and I even adore you...but don't get it twisted.....I LOVE ME FIRST and my art.
So, tell me, what is your escapism?
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Honestly sounds a lot like myself some of the time
My escapism is usually playing video games, modifying video games or (learning to still) developing video games.1 -
Escapism is something everyone should get involved in these days!
I'm also a gamer, but also love painting miniatures, which is like a form of meditation for me, or I'll break out the guitar and play for a half hour. All great to soothe the mind.
Do you have to be amazing at something to enjoy it? Heck no!1 -
@Jimm_Scope My escapism is usually playing video games, modifying video games or (learning to still) developing video games.
That is brilliant! You might end up creating an amazing one and be seen as an expert one day. Do not give up.
@a@Albus_ScopeDo you have to be amazing at something to enjoy it? Heck no!
I totally agree. Fake it until you make it. Madonna did.
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AgreedAlbus_Scope said:Escapism is something everyone should get involved in these days!
I'm also a gamer, but also love painting miniatures, which is like a form of meditation for me, or I'll break out the guitar and play for a half hour. All great to soothe the mind.
Do you have to be amazing at something to enjoy it? Heck no!
I am getting a guitar for my birthday next month!
I haven't played for several years
If you had to be good at something to enjoy it I would hate playing guitar!!2 -
I go through periods of not playing, I was up to 2 years of not playing up until very recently. I'm dead excited for your birthday now @66Mustang! I'm saving for a new bass, that was always my instrument of choice. I could happily go into a flow state and just vibe with some good basslines for literal hours.
I think a cartoon dog summed it all up best;
"Dude, sucking at something is the first step towards being sorta good at something."2
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