I haven't posted on her for a long while but need to offload.
I am a full-time wheelchair user, I get a lot of pain in my hips, legs and feet but I have been coping with it quite well recently, I even announced I was happy.
And then I wasn't!
I get stiff hands if I do something like weeding in the garden. My hands, wrists, and shoulders were damaged by using crutches for way too many years, but the shoulders rarely played up since using a wheelchair. The stiff hands would flare for a couple of days, but nothing too bad.
At the beginning of August, my hands, wrists, and shoulders started to play up and for the past few weeks it has been unbearable. They seize up overnight, and sometimes I can't even get myself out of bed in the morning and if I can, my wife has to push my wheelchair to the bathroom, and then I get stuck on the toilet. Late morning and into the afternoon it eases up but then again at night it all happens again.
I am used to pain, but I am not afraid to admit that this has had me in tears, like properly sobbing with the pain and the frustration.
I have been referred to rheumatology, and I am seeing them on the 3rd of October, which is quick but still feels like a long way away.
I am not sure if I have enough fight left in me for this new level of disability.