Wealth

Catherine21
Catherine21 Posts: 3,369 Championing

I was supporting my daughter we had ti go to harley Street! You could see it was dripping with money flash cars the lot !I struggled so much I don't go out I don't travel it really depressed me I was struggling internally so bad made my body dismorphia so bad and I was panicking inside how would I cope in the real world trying to act present I Just wanted get home I've been in bed since Today really saddened me made me look around me I've never wanted to be rich never been envious what I was sad about is the loss of my life how I'm incapable of having a career building a life I know I been thinking so much since labour said about going back to work felt to cry at the reality that I cant hold jobs down might be able for a week then I know I will crash sorry to go on feeling drained I hate MH

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  • Rosie_Scope
    Rosie_Scope Posts: 4,785 Scope Online Community Coordinator

    Sorry you're feeling so drained @Catherine21. London can be an overwhelming place to be at the best of times, and there is so much wealth on display in some areas. I can totally understand why you might feel affected by seeing things like that.

    I bet your daughter really appreciated your support, it's a really nice thing that you went with her even though it was difficult for you. Hope you can rest up today, take it easy ❤️

  • Bluebell21
    Bluebell21 Online Community Member, Scope Member Posts: 7,563 Championing

    Hi @Catherine21 You did really well going with your daughter to support her. Your daughter must have been very happy for you to be with her. I am sorry it has made you so unsettled with your own life. Please take care of yourself.

  • Catherine21
    Catherine21 Posts: 3,369 Championing

    Ah thankyou means alot was feeling such a failure x

  • luvpink
    luvpink Online Community Member Posts: 561 Pioneering

    You are not a failure.

    Its not your fault you are unwell and suffering.

    You sound like a kind caring person, willing to help others.

  • Nightcity
    Nightcity Online Community Member, Scope Member Posts: 3,079 Championing
    edited October 2024

    wealth - I live in Sussex and Know a fair few with money and all but one are arrogant, ignorant and think they are special. I have no time for them, in fact I am trying to move to south Wales and that is one of the reasons I can't stand that sort of person.

    London - I hate London, especially as I got lost on a school trip around madame Tussauds and the planetarium in 1995 age just 13. It's too noisy,Crowded and I can't stand the place haven't been there since being discharged by the maudsley hospital Tourettes specialist Dr heyman in 2001.

    Body Image etc - I have always been paranoid about my looks and weight (although I've lost 2 stone this year) and got major issues with self worth.

    Today - What you did was very kind and thoughtful and I'm sure your daughter appreciated you putting her first and supporting her.

  • Catherine21
    Catherine21 Posts: 3,369 Championing

    Oh thankyou well done for losing two stone yes me I feel so vile going out triggers everything thankyou everybody so good people get it much appreciated

  • Catherine21
    Catherine21 Posts: 3,369 Championing

    Thankyou lovely people I hope your night going well thankyou

  • Autism_at_40
    Autism_at_40 Online Community Member Posts: 899 Pioneering

    Wealth is what you make it, to some it is the flash cars and flashing the cash. To others it's a loving family, try not to compare yourself to other people's standards of living or whatever.

    I know what you mean about the DWP, I feel like I have a target on my back, I too can't hold a job down (even before I went into burnout and onto LCW). I think that we have to just keep being persistent. It took me 2 1/2 years to get LCWRA, after a MR and 2 tribunals, but I got it eventually. I think they try and wear people down to give in, but you clearly struggle too much to work, so try not to let it make you worse and just know that you are justified to be on benefits, we shouldn't have to validate ourselves so much, but we are validated. (I don't know if that makes sense).

    I hope you feel better.

  • Catherine21
    Catherine21 Posts: 3,369 Championing

    Total sense thankyou It strange it was like I was looking at the world almost child I don't go out I keep myself so contained I have been triggered about work work work as we all have change change me and my daughter talking it is so unfair living in a world not designed for us thankyou for kind words I Hope your having a nice weekend 😊

  • Catherine21
    Catherine21 Posts: 3,369 Championing

    Touch wood I never had problems with lwcra but pip always glad you got in the end

  • Autism_at_40
    Autism_at_40 Online Community Member Posts: 899 Pioneering

    Not had a payment yet, but hopefully soon.

    Glad everything I said made sense.

    Looking at the world like a child, can be a good thing though. In the sense that you can see things in a way that's not tainted by adult fears and such.

    I just got up after a decent sleep and went out in the sunshine this morning, so pretty good weekend so far, thank you. Hope you do too.