Thanks to those who have messaged/responded to me. It has helped.
I am not washing or looking after myself at all. I am ashamed at how my life has ended up. Total mess.
I have asked for help more than once and it's practically none existent.
No family or support network. So alone, lonely and vulnerable.
I don't want to exist anymore. Nobody would notice or care if I wasn't around. It would get rid of these awful feelings.
I haven't got the guts to end my life the way I want to. Can't even do that.
From today I won't be eating anything. I will be drinking. I have already lost a lot of weight. I need to lose more so that I can slowly waste away and eventually no longer exist.
It's the only way.
Not a cry for help. Just wanted to let someone know.
I pray for my life to end practically constantly. I hope God forgives me.
Love to You all and thank you.