Good morning all,
I am really struggling waiting for my PIP decision and I wondered if anyone had any tips on how to relieve the anxiety of waiting?
I previously applied for PIP when I was on the assessment pathway for ADHD and Autism because it said a diagnosis wasn't required but then in the report it said that I wasn't diagnosed with anything so wasn't awarded. It really made me feel absolutely devastated as the man who did my assessment seemed to really understand what I was saying and I think it is the first time I had ever opened up about my issues. I felt like I spent a lot of time crying and really opening up and then when I got the thing through and it said I showed no distress and stuff on the call, I just felt really devastated that I had trusted someone enough to open up and then it felt like they had just lied and it made me think that I wouldn't get diagnosed as it said on the report that I didn't have any evidence of Autism or ADHD. It was basically really traumatic.
Anyway, miraculously when I had my assessments they said it was actually quite evident that I was both Autistic and ADHD. So I thought, well I should try again because I have been struggling so much with working full time that I needed to drop to part time. It is making life hard in respects to finances but then good in the fact that I am not getting burnt out. Anyway, now I am getting really, really anxious waiting for the decision as it really affected me last time. I am almost wishing that I just didn't apply as the comments last time really hurt and made me feel like I was just failing at life for no reason. I don't know how to deal with the anxiety. I am not expecting to get it but I don't know whether when the letter comes through to just throw it away rather than read the comments.
SOrry I have rambled. Has anyone got any advice?