Struggling, lack of sleep and more

Catherine21

https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/941462#Comment_941462

I didn't speak to my dad for 7 years this sounds awful but I despised him but that what my mum made do I used to call him pig instead of dad from age of 3 but we are extremely close now his health is bad but in my adult life he helped ne so much and never judged me my mum on other hand quite bitter woman I've always looked for her love funny enough was trying to explain autism adhd and she said you was just vile and nasty aways it definitely must of been our era as so many woman over 50 waiting tests and your spot on with schooling and the loss of a life relationships and a good career to be independent I can be ok working for a week then I burnout so quick even at school the same everyone walking to school chatting I'm hiding in a Bush till they all gone in I hide for hours god got to laugh or I go back home watch horror films with my dad he has bipolar he always had vailum in the brown bottle in the cupboard I used to be taking them myself as a teenager I truly believe I don't know how to be happy so I used to drink to get dopamine hit oh the things I done when younger but saying all this I always had a heart always really cared which has its pros and cons and here we are we are warriors as I sit her like Ken Dodd the hair in the morning i have to take fifi for jab and hide her in the bag so taxi man don't see until she makes funny noises yes she talks in her doggy language and I' have to cough loud have a fabulous day same time tomorrow for our session xx

Catherine21

https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/941556#Comment_941556

II'm A only child I couldn't imagine what it would be like to be judged against each other at least we have a heart we now what it's like to suffer and have great empathy can be a blessing and a curse I remember days of exams I hid under this glass display and when everyone went into hall I legged it out of the school funny you forget all these things I was always legging it so I think in my next life I should be either a bush or an athletic runner 🏃‍♀️ pls excuse writing hope you have a relaxing day xx

Catherine21

https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/941605#Comment_941605

I cant its ingrained hope you have a fabulous weekend xx