Assessment

Catherine21

I'm awaiting an adhd test and was wondering if they gave me medication would i miss my inner dialogue? What does it feel like to not focus on 100 things at one time to constantly have conversations with myself and people who are not there live out scenarios of things that may happen not to burst out singing make funny voices alot more not to get obsessive about tasks how would that feel would i still be me it would be nice to get rid the negative voices that stop me living my life the bully that doesn't go away getting rid of body dismorphia and be able to go on holidays have photos done look in a mirror being paralysed mentally tired burnout after spending an hour in anyone's company always feeling empty but then so full up with emotions be able to let go of the mask that makes people see me as strong logical always having to do hair and makeup thinking it be more socially acceptable where's inside people talk to me I appear to be listening but I'm not i can't retain and information none its impossible my daughter used to get so upset as I used to forget about alot of things I said god that used to kill me what would it be like to be truly relaxed happy content not paranoid always feeling like a failure isolating it's so hard when you have invisible illnesses always gaslighted

Rosie_Scope

While I don't have ADHD myself, my partner does. He said that medication did help silence some of the constant rushing in his brain and it was weird not to have that at first, but there were plenty of positives.

If you decide to try some medication it might take a little while to get the right balance. You'd never be forced to take a medication if you felt it was having an effect that you didn't like.

I hope some of our members with ADHD might be able to share their experiences with you soon. And fingers crossed you're not waiting too long for your assessment 😊

Catherine21

It's a long wait it's really been eye opener I thought everyone had busy mind and reading up about autism 100 percent makes sense about me I would never of though that

Albus_Scope

Heya @Catherine21 the waiting is the worst! I'm still waiting for my official ADHD diagnosis, so I understand the annoyance and the constant streams of "what ifs" but from what my friends with ADHD have told me, you inner monologue doesn't vanish, things just become calmer and it's easier to muddle through your racing thoughts and focus on things. It's the difference between a raging storm at sea and the gentle waves washing against the shore. 😊

It's not a quick fix by any means, but it definitely makes life easier once you're on the right medication, which is very much trial and error and it's very much a personal thing as to how it effects you.

Catherine21

https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/964202#Comment_964202

I love that explanation I hope if it does happen can take away this awful anxiety in constant state of terror terrible for cortisol levels I've come off tiktok and I don't watch news anymore hope you are well it's freezing here absolutely freezing

Albus_Scope

As said it can be different for everyone. A friend said because it was easier to sort through his thoughts and he could focus more, he was less anxious as he wasn't constantly battling his brain. But medication isnt a cure all, please be aware of that, but I hope if medication is required, it helps you. 😊
I stopped checking TikTok, the amount of misinformation on there really is terrible, plus where it's all short videos, you tend to binge a lot, so it's really not good for the mental health having that much potential bad news bombarding you constantly. So good for you for stopping. 😊

It's worth remembering that not everything you read online will be the truth (Though some sources are more trustworthy of course,) so try and get into the habit of questioning things, it can go a long way towards curbing that news based anxiety. 😁

Catherine21

https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/964225#Comment_964225

How weird I just had a call from assessment centre she was really nice but said it will be 3 years I asked if they was right to choose as people say it's quicker she said was nhs assessment? Feel so depressed does anyone know services do quicker can't afford private would I have to go back to my doctor for right to choose when she said adhd assessment center I got excited feel deflated probley be 56 when I already now it's definitely adhd and autism I have with other things

Catherine21

Oh yes tiktok had me on my knees but I was so drawn to it almost addicted but I will fight that urge as really unhealthy yes all this media based scaremongering horrendous and I'd say really cruel I know that's been the way for centuries once you engage it takes you down