I don't know what's going on

calflye

I feel that all the stress I've been under is causing something in me. There are people trying to hurt my family and they're against me, making my family ill but people will try to say I'm sick if I say that. I'm having thoughts I don't want to have and I feel like I'm going crazy. Like I don't know what's really real. Nothing is really real. It doesn't feel real. I don't know who to go to because they won't believe me or will say I'm sick. They said Einstein was sick and crazy, now look. Everyone loves his theories and how his mind worked. They'll blame it on my BP2 but they just don't want to hear me speak. They want to silence me and stress me out.

calflye

Einstein was smart but people called him crazy. I get people telling me I'm crazy when I'm just telling them what I know about things. Now because I have a diagnosis, it's like it's used as a backup for them to just disregard what I say. They're going to hurt my family and I don't know what I can do to stop it. I keep having these dreams that feel real. Like clarity. But I'm awake during the dreams. They tell me things that will happen to me and my family but not how to stop it. But people around me seem to treat me like I'm fragile.

Morgan_Scope

Hi @calflye,

I'm really sorry to hear about how you're feeling and the stress you're under at the moment.

While you might be worried about the response, it’s important to prioritise your safety and well-being. If you or your family feel in danger, please report it to the police. They are there to help.

Also, sharing your feelings with someone you trust, like a GP or mental health professional, can also make a big difference. You don’t have to go through this alone and if you have concerns, it's important you share them with someone who can help.

calflye

Hi @Morgan_Scope I have a GP appointment on Wednesday (for other reasons), I'm thinking of bringing it up there. I'm not in danger currently, I feel safe but I might bring it up to the GP and call my psychiatrist. I spoke to a friend about it but she seemed to just get weird about it.

Morgan_Scope

Hi @calflye. It sounds like a good idea to bring it up with your GP. I'm sorry your friend seemed to get weird about it, but know there could be many reasons for that. Hopefully your GP will be able to offer you more advice. We've also sent you an email so please look out for it.