I was on tax credits and then that stopped so I migrated. I have found it nothing but anxiety causing and am awaiting WCA - UC50 not looked at yet when my son asked them last week. they have me on work focused phone calls - my friend did most of the talking last time as I was distressed. They suggested a group - I get extreme dstress in groups and was having therapy with complex needs but they discharged me because my physical health was too poor to manage it.
The work coach doesn;t understand my conditions and i end up very triggered when I have spoken to her - i had made so much progress with my mental health and Universal credit have undone it all. I am left feeling hopeless. i've not slept afetr their last unexpcted message saying i have to come for a face to face appointment in a few days time, and the knock on effect of all the anxiety and panic and loss of sleep on my other conditions is immense. I am housebound some of the time and dont know how i can even get there - and if i managed it physically, i dread to think how i would cope mentally. i have been in an extrene mental health state in there a few years ago it is very triggering for me.
i just don;t know how to get through it. i can't sleep or eat, it's desperatly hard not to self harm and i hadn't in three years.
I am desperate to just cancel the claim and try and cope without it now, i can;t go through anymore of it, but people ahve said not to and it could cause problems but i don't know why.
i feel like i am falling apart now, UC has totally destabilised me. How can I cope with it? I just want to end the claim and dont know why it is a bad idea to?
thanks for listening i am in a bad physical an mental state rght now and extrenely fragile
