Spiralling

sosad999

I feel like I'm losing my grip on my life. Well, on the emotions and their impact on my life.

I've had 2 weeks of MBT. Its harder than I was expecting given I'm only 2 weeks in. Its highlighted how deep I'd pushed everything and now emotions are bubbling back to the top and I'm drowning. I'm convinced I'm pushing my best friend away even though logically I know I'm not but gain, emotionally I'm terrified. I want to drink and I want to self harm, both things I've promised her I won't do - so I won't but it doesn't make it all go away.

I don't know what to do with myself 😫

Holly_Scope

Morning @sosad999. I'm so sorry you're feeling like this at the minute. I know from my experience of therapy (although a different kind), it was really hard and I was so down too at the beginning but it got better. I'm going to send you an email soon so please keep an eye out for it 💜

Catherine21

When i first met my psychtrist i felt the same i felt traumatised i was phoning my doctor screaming all the things she said he tried to reasure me she had my best intreast so i went back and over time she was amazing its so hard to drop the mask and open up to things buried deep inside drinking and self harming are ways to hurt ourselfs even more and all you know sometimes i really hope this works out for you as it does feel terrible at first for alot of people