Fed up with work!
Hello,
I hope this finds all of you well, and if you do read my moan, all of it. I deeply appreciate it.
Firstly I know I'm incredibly fortunate to have a job, and to still be able to work
In 2001 I started my current role, I work as a scientist for a government body. Since starting I've become registered visually impaired and have severe Tourettes syndrome with complex tics. Every time I've been referred to OH it's been a battle to stay working in the laboratory. I do work with chemicals etc, but you'd be surprised at what you can do in a lab with low vision. I have extreme light sensitivity and eye pain and have reasonable adjustments in place.
My main reasonable adjustment is low light, I basically work with black out blinds and by soft lamp light. I've worked this way for 5 years.
We've recently moved to a new premises in a different town, it was agreed at board level July '16 that they would help cover my taxi costs with AtoW my team leader didn't know this, lack of communication from upper management.
AtoW contacted my team leader in December despite her not really having to do anything, it took her 7 weeks to respond to AtoW. This left me a week to sign declaration forms and contact the winning taxi company and sort out times etc.
I requested several times for her to respond (nicely) and at one team meeting she said that AtoW had left her a message, no idea what that's about?!?really! I bit my tongue.
I also needed to go to the new build and traverse the area with my cane. I use a cane everywhere apart from my house, inside the lab areas I work. I was told "don't worry you'll be fine, you'll get there"
Actually I'm visually impaired, have mobility issues with my tics at times especially when anxious. Nope, nothing.
I arranged it myself with a colleague, naturally managers then wanted to step in and rearrange the plans I'd made...
This is all in the week where I have to sort out transport, pack up a lab, I rarely ask for help and don't get it if I do.
My main reasonable adjustment, black out blinds hadn't been done. I was apologised to by the project manager and assured it would be done straight away. 5 weeks in now, and they still aren't right. Hopefully this week it will be. I bought clip on sunglasses to slip over my safety glasses to try and help me manage. Because I'm still expected to do my job.
I work 7am to 3.30 I was assured the first day that everything would be open. It's a university. It wasn't. I sat on the floor for over an hour before another staff member came in, then a while longer before someone actually opened it up. It's new, I expected some issues. What really upset me though was I'd text my team manager to say what was happening, she couldn't text me back but had managed to tell everyone what had happened. As any staff that came from the old building came to see me and ask if I was ok. She didn't. I don't want the moon on a stick, I'd just spent 40 minutes with a new taxi driver, stressed, an are you ok would have been nice.
I have two work areas. A lab and an office. I'm the only person to have an office, due to my reasonable adjustments, they replicated what I had. So a dark office for all my pc assistive kit etc. Again I know how lucky I am. And the lab area.
I had my review last week. I passed, she commented that I'd not done 6 samples. Thsee came in the week before we moved and I'd packed up everything, she also said it was fine to do them after we moved!
Followed by " I know you love your domain, but for next year's development, how about you have a think about doing something else, we'll obviously have to train more people up to do your work, so have a think"
Now, I don't know if I'm being over sensitive here. But to me there's a massive difference between " loving my domain " and being able to walk into my work area and work. Half my work I need masses of kit, the other half I can manage without kit.
This really upset me, it came across as "your reasonable adjustments are just your comfort zone"
It isn't practical to reasonably adjust a multitude of labs and I work with such low light it causes others difficulties. Naturally I'm met with but you're going blind how can you work in the dark...
I'm just fed up with it. It's a university, we have no security yet, I've very loud racist motor tics and have already been approached by a student about hate speech, staff think it's funny. I'm scared.
I also have a colleague who thinks it's funny to deliberately make me tic, I've asked him not to, said it's unkind his response was. Well, you're ticcing anyway.
I don't know if I'm being a snowflake or am being slightly discriminated against and should complain to someone.
I do love my job, but wouldn't be able to do it if it wasn't for my reasonable adjustments.
Any advice if you managed to read my ranting would be appreciated.
Many thanks
Vapegirlclouds x