Am I crazy to give up social housing in this circumstance?
After escaping severe family abuse, I was left suffering from devastating panic and anxiety attacks, depression and severe anxiety. The thing which I credit with giving me the only stability that I have ever known living for years in an amazing, large, beautiful flat with a wonderful housing association that I largely credit for saving my mental health and life. I count it as a family member, it is the only stability that I have ever known.
I count it as the best thing that ever happened to me (even people with mortgages want a place like this) however, I have to leave because the university I attend is in another city and I am very academic (I got all As at GCSE) and absolutely cannot stay in non-graduate minimum wage jobs for the rest of my life. It’s driving me insane. I thought I would be able to do university with the commute and work to hang onto it but by university is in another city in which there are no Home swap properties (for the last 6 months and I needed to move now) and time-wise it doesn’t work in the second year.
I realise this may be a very stupid decision as I was homeless/living in refuges before then (I have no contact with my dad who abused me and my mum who passed away, so I am essentially giving up ALL my security.
However, this is the only way to continue with my university studies and hence my life.
I am so much happier and more fulfilled with other students and in graduate-related careers. I have mainly worked in catering up until now, purely to keep my flat, but I'm in my late 20s and it doesn't suit me (or actually my panic and anxiety) at all and I must continue with my studies.
Like I said, I've tried to do Homeswap but there aren't any closeby and I have asked my landlord if they could intervene and find me something there but the Housing Association doesn't do housing there, so I'd have to go back to the council list and as I'm not technically homeless now this would be too difficult/long.
I trust the private landlord and she is really nice but I am so worried about giving up this security and going over to the private sector, especially with the way that the world is headed, my mental precariousness and life instability.
It is truly a beautiful property, but I can’t give up on my degree and future.
Anyone still think this is a crazy decision??
I have severe anxiety and depression and most private landlords will not take benefits should I ever have to claim them and obviously I have no family to fall back on.
It’s SUCH a difficult decision.
Any input appreciated.