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Hi, my name is RhabAdnam!
Hi. I feel a little odd posting here, but for reasons I will shortly go into, the time has come. First, a history lesson. From as soon as I could walk it became clear I was different. I walked up on my toes. It later transpired that I had short leg tendons that made me do so. I had years of physio and eventually I saw a nice man at the hospital (I would have been about 10) about an operation. He asked me if I could live with it. I said I could and he said he thought I shouldn't have it. Over the years I fashioned a sort of stylised strut that hid it quite well unless I was tired. Fast forward 15 years. I read an upside down note on my records in my doctors surgery. "cerebral Palsy, mild ataxia of the limbs". That was news to me. I put it to him and he seemed very embarrassed. I think he assumed I had known. My mother had never mentioned it at all. And thinking back at the time, in my teens I used to have a nervous tic where I'd push my head over to one side. I remember hearing someone say it was "sad". I have also always suffered more with nerves and with muscle strains than the average person. I am now in my 40s and am having terrible symptoms (as yet undiagnosed) with tremors and limb pain/weakness. I have sometimes mentioned that old note on my file to my GP but they never seem all that interested. There could be many reasons but I do wonder if my general physiology + ageing is now a factor. If anyone has any views I'd be glad to hear them.