I don't think I can return to work and basically just don't know what to do

Chloe_Alumni

That must be so fustrating @Chezg! I hope the appointment on Wednesday goes well and please do let us know

Chezg

So have been for appointment today. It took along time difficult to say how it went. Yes the lady doing my assessment seemed very nice softly spoken sympathetic even.. But after reading others ppls experiences not sure how much if any was genuine. What I can say is the interview defo started before we even got to room although she then discovered walking and talking and breathing was not a strong point of mine lol. Repetitive questions framed in slightly different way a lot I would say not that it matters when ur telling the truth because ur answers are always the same anyway but me being me and liking to know everything before I do anything, so I did a lot of research and read a lot of ppls experiences beforehand.. That's just the way I am I can cope with stuff so long as I know what's going on ect so I'm thinking on that point of view I was more aware by what other ppls experiences had been and then my own ie the fact she asked questions multiple times but in different manner. I have a lot of unexplained symptoms and things that could be put down to the tablets I take, b12 deficiency, being rather chunky, and or an autoimmune ( not yet diagnosed which one) disease as well as osteoarthritis in my knee and back and if I told her this once I must of said it about ten times every time now I go to doctor he says wait for specialist rheumatologist to determine which is which. Also digging into past history and because I have depression there was a lot of questions relating to that which somethings I've never said outloud to anyone before I found it very upsetting and almost felt a little humiliated that I'm saying stuff about myself and where I've found myself to b atm. I've always been hugely independent and having to say my mom has to come help me with housework and dinner ect plus all my symptoms ect a very over whelming experience. And yes I cried which made me cross at myself. All in all not a great day
Time will tell what the assor made of it all. 
Will update when get my report 

Adrian_Scope

Hello @Chezg, I'm sorry it was a difficult day today, but hopefully the outcome will end up being positive after all.
Thanks for letting us know.

Chloe_Alumni

Hi @Chezg, thank you for coming and updating us on this. I'm really sorry it was a tough assessment. I hope you're able to have some time this evening to do something positive.
Like @Adrian_Scope said, I really hope it's a positive outcome.

zakblood

good luck and hope it's also a positive outcome

Chezg

Thank you everyone. I'm glad my mom came with me  and am now having a pj evening with the kids this group has been amazing from words of support and advice just knowing ur not alone and going mad all by ur self is such a positive thing x 

Chloe_Alumni

Morning @Chezg, I'm so glad you managed to have a relaxing evening after the assessment. You most certainly are not alone, I'm so glad we were able to help