OCD and Anxiety
Morning. After reading a link on here to do with the descriptors. I can't stop thinking about the descriptors of pip and thinking about whether the tribunal will think that I don't qualify for any of them at all. They seem so generalised. I manage toilet needs with pads and at MR they agreed that the anxiety causes me incontinence,a paramedic recommended it. I find complex information overwhelming,the sheer amount of it,taking it all in,remembering it,the time factor if anything has to be submitted,but fear that that is not enough because I have a learning difficulty and not a learning disability. Complex signs and symbols I find hard to take in,but again,I have a learning difficulty. Complex budgeting such as bills,I don't understand and can't take it in,but I manage my bank account,so again,just a difficulty. The anxiety gets so much that I find these tasks overwhelming as well. It gets too much and mum has to step in. Form filling,bills,instructions. Engaging with people face to face. In a familiar surrounding,friends,family,even strangers,yes,but unfamiliar surroundings,busy,loud,a lot going on,such as the supermarket,I can't cope. I've tried it and had to leave and sit in dad's car,in tears. It got to the point where I wanted to hit someone,but that's the supermarket or being away from home such as out for the day or on holiday,which causes significant amounts of anxiety to the point of nausea,worrying,checking my watch,anxiety,irritability to the point of shaking and wanting to hit someone. Again,I can be in familiar surroundings,so that won't matter. I can't travel to unfamiliar surroundings on my own,even a few towns away. The lanes,roundabouts,directions confuse me and I get stressed. It's the same with public transport,all the people,will the transport arrive on time? Will it leave on time? Will it break down? How do I get to the place from the bus stop,where is the place? I can't understand the timetables. That,I may stand a chance on. All the others,I don't think so. This is futile. I really don't stand a chance.