Don't no where to turn to
I've suffered with a mental health disorder for the last 20+years, tried constantly on a daily basis to cope alone with this while working, raising family until 7 years ago i had a massive breakdown, by 2016 I'd attempted suicide, had crisis team and doctors have increased my meds last year which make me drowsy, and my concentration is awful, over the last 7 years i have become a recluse, i have major issues with connecting with people and my anxiety is overwhelming, i am always worried about my husband dying and leaving me, worry about everything, my heads a mess, I have struggled with getting around my home more and more in the past 2 years and was diagnosed with severe osteoporosis in both my knees last April, i now have to use a frame and walk stick. I decided to have a review of my pip award and applied last April for this, before this i received standard rate for daily living only based on my mental health condition, as I have to rely on my husband for everything now, i can't leave my house alone as I have become very anxious, have panic attacks, confusion, end up in tears and just can't cope with the outside world, i feel safe at home and protected, i waited 3 anxious months for the assessment, only to be told repeatedly that I couldn't have a home assessment for pip, had to get a letter from the doctor to state why i needed one at home, eventually 23rd September 2019 I had this evil excuse of an assessment at home. My husband was present all through the barbaric experience, he spoke for me as much as possible as I was inconsolable, shaking like a leaf, told her i felt sick and started crying, i was then asked to stand up from my chair, lift both my feet off the floor, which was extremely painful, then sit down, wasn't ask how far i can walk nothing, my medication prescribed by my doctor was in front of the assessor, also medication I've been on for IBS for years, all was explained to her about my mental health and the daily effects and limits this has on me, so I've waited and waited for the decision letter which finally arrived on the 2nd of January 2020, assessor lied and lied, the worst most awful experience I'd had and she lied. Everything my husband said for me was totally ignored, i received 6 points for daily living, even though I can't leave my home by myself, can't cook by myself and many other activities. Letter said i can follow a journey by myself, i am capable of managing day to day activities by myself, even though they admit in the letter i struggle with activities which I will continue to do so, I've somehow miraculously got 100% better and that's that. They say I've had no input in 3 years, yet I've recently had intense physiotherapy, steroid injections, self treatment and exercise i have to do at home and contious appointments with my gp, I'm back at doctors Friday because I'm in a terrible state and feeling so low every day, i need more evidence apparently for a mandatory reconsideration, don't know where to turn or what to say to the doctor, i really need advice, this system is so corrupt it's killing people, I'm suffering and sinking.
