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Newbie who is anxious to tell anyone what I am experiencing

Hi, I'm Jade. I'm 26 and I am a full time uni student.
I do not know how these online forums work, and I feel completely exposed and vulnerable by expressing how I feel. However, I can't hold it in anymore with the pain I am experiencing because I have mobility disabilities. I use a crutch for now, but I can no longer walk to the shop without pain, I cant sleep, I can't sit down without every inch of my legs being in pain. I keep grieving for the life I once had and the fact that I have to face a life of pain which will not go away, I love going on holidays and being outdoors, and I feel embarrassed to tell anyone just what I am going through for fear of judgement. I feel like Im being dramatic by posting this or even telling people that I am disabled. Ive only just accepted that I am entitled to pip after so many years putting it off. For the past 18 years I have not known what it is like to walk pain free, and as I've got older my muscles in my legs have slowly just been giving up and I do not know what to do anymore.
Sorry for posting this. Obviously there is alot more too me than my disabilities, but right now it is taking over my life and I just wanted to get it off my chest. Thank you to anyone who reads this and sorry if its too long x
I do not know how these online forums work, and I feel completely exposed and vulnerable by expressing how I feel. However, I can't hold it in anymore with the pain I am experiencing because I have mobility disabilities. I use a crutch for now, but I can no longer walk to the shop without pain, I cant sleep, I can't sit down without every inch of my legs being in pain. I keep grieving for the life I once had and the fact that I have to face a life of pain which will not go away, I love going on holidays and being outdoors, and I feel embarrassed to tell anyone just what I am going through for fear of judgement. I feel like Im being dramatic by posting this or even telling people that I am disabled. Ive only just accepted that I am entitled to pip after so many years putting it off. For the past 18 years I have not known what it is like to walk pain free, and as I've got older my muscles in my legs have slowly just been giving up and I do not know what to do anymore.
Sorry for posting this. Obviously there is alot more too me than my disabilities, but right now it is taking over my life and I just wanted to get it off my chest. Thank you to anyone who reads this and sorry if its too long x
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There is no need to apologise, and hopefully you won't find anyone here judging you because you are in a lot of pain.
May I ask if you have a diagnosis?
As an individual I stood alone.
As a member of a group I did things.
As part of a community I helped to create change!
Thank you, I hope you are well
A very warm welcome and sorry to learn about your problems.
You should not suffer in silence and nobody should judge you.
I have similar problems in my back, which causes unrelenting pain.
The best thing I ever did, was to attend a Pain Management Programme, might be worth speaking to your GP.
Hope you are able to keep with your studies as best you can.
Best wishes
I hope you have found the above advice and suggestions to be helpful. I would certainly reiterate what @atlas47 has said, that a Pain Clinic may be a very good option for you so maybe once we are out of lock-down, you could speak to your GP about a referral. Anyway, please chat to us anytime as that is what we are here for and we do understand how you feel.
Glad to hear you have a very fulfilling life apart from this. It is good to keep busy! I hope you enjoy your time with us and feel a bit better soon. Please keep in touch and let us know how you are getting on and if we can be of any help/support at all then please just let us know. All the best.
I can only imagine how tough it was for you to come here and express how you feel, but I'm really glad you did. While we can't wave a magic wand and make your pain go away, we're a friendly community and are always here if you need to lean on us for a bit of support.
Hopefully some of the suggestions above might help, but in the meantime please stick around, maybe join us in the coffee lounge for some lighthearted chat and make sure to let us know if there's anything we can do.
Can I ask what you're studying at uni?
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