Any ideas on what might help?
Hi. I was wondering if anyone with similar issues to mine might have any insight to offer on what helped them. I suffer with OCD, generalised anxiety, panic disorder and borderline personality disorder. It’s also possible that might have ADHD and/or ASD (obviously these issues are different, but the tendencies and thought patterns associated with each might offer some insight on my brain and how I approach certain things). Day to day, I struggle with a few main thing. One of these is coping with extreme, short lived mood swings. I go from totally fine, to feeling severely low, and back the other way to hyperactive and excitable, within a half hour. This series of events plays on repeat constantly. My obsessions (intrusive thoughts) and compulsions (rituals) are also worsening, more so for the intrusive thoughts. I also struggle with dissociation, and this combined with the obsessions means I lose hours on end to horrible images that play on repeat in my head, often without realising what’s happening. I’m also constantly anxious, and my memory and concentration are horrendous- to the extent where I’ll forget what day it is, or I’ll feel like I’m taking something in, and when I try to recall what is was seconds later, I don’t know.
I don’t really want to fall into venting too much right now, so I’ll bring it back round to my initial query. I guess I’m concerned that my mental health is worsening, and the support I’m currently getting consists of a check up every 2-3 weeks, and being on the waiting list for my local cognitive analytical therapy group. I wouldn’t say I’m in crisis- I have been in the past, and my early teenage years were consumed by 6 or 7 acute admissions. But I do experience a consistent level of suicidal ideation (with no intent to act on it), and I’m concerned about where I’ll end up if things continue in this direction. I really want to be working on my mental health, but I’m not sure what I can do. If anyone has any thoughts on who I could talk to, or is willing to tell me about their experiences (whether they’re similar to mine or not), I’d be very grateful.
P.S. This was difficult for me to write, so apologies if any of it doesn't make much sense (and feel free to ask me anything in the comments).