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Is there anyone else like me? I've never come accross anyone similar to me
Hi, I'm just wondering if there is anyone similar out there to myself that struggles as much as I do throughout life?
I have autism and struggle day to day with it, the only way I will socialise is online though games or chats. I don't like to talk to meet anyone and get from anxious when forced to do so which sets off my other illness's and I become very poorly. So most times I just stay locked in my room with my computer for company. I don't go out much and when I do I only go out to visit my family members for which I get a lift there and back from my step-dad.
I tried recently to have a job but this caused too much anxiety and stress on me, which has set off my illness and now I am really poorly again and in pain most days. I have sensativity's to noise and can have a melt down if the environment is too noisy or crowded. I have a general fear of going out incase anyone talks to me or tries to interact with me and the only way I can go shop is if I'm accompanied and I plan out exactly what I want, and know where it is in the shop, if its missing or moved I will freak out and panic.
I have to have a routine and will do pretty much the same thing at certain times, and have set days of doing stuff again I will get upset if this broken, the only thing that helps with this is if I gear up far in advance for something and plan it throughly beforehand so anything spontionous I hate and will freak out.
I tend to take things literally and don't understand sarcasm or jokes and have a very one way sided view of looking at things which has made me lose friends, and I have a problem reaching out or contacting people. I'm not one for messaging people first and it takes someone to message or phone me before I will try to contact them which again has lost me friends in the past. I will only speak to people I already know like family or my care coordinator, but will ignore spontanious calls from anywhere else.
Family tell me also that I am very cold, I don't understand emotion or don't read peoples emotions so I laugh when I'm meant to be sad, or get very sad and angry when I'm meant to be happy. I also don't always initally pick up that a person is upset or hurting unless prompted and don't know how to repond to it.
Is there anyone else like this or similar?