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Hi, my name is Nikkimac!
I know I'm being cheeky here but wondered if I could approach the community for some advice. I've got multiple disabilities including constant pain and suffered discrimination at work over the last 4 years (with a tribunal case pending), the death of my brother-in-law last April and death of my Aunty in November 2020. In July 2020, after 16 years in my home, we had a family move in, renting next door and they have been an almost constant nuisance with noise and abuse when we have politely asked them to please keep the noise down. I used to be a happy person but have suffered from depression, feelings of worthlessness and suicide. I tried CBT but it is for people who don't have disabilities and I think I got a 'computer says no' response when I said a lot of the problems I have are, rather circuitessly, due to pain, fatigue and stress symptoms, not just depression. I feel CBT is designed to fix people but only one small part of them, ignoring the rather messy whole. I would love to try cannabis but have no idea where to get hold of it and I've never smoked. Has anyone tried meditation and does it help with pain and depression? <Moderator removed - content potentially harmful to others> The only thing stopping me is fear of pain and I think death would be an end to struggling. Love and hugs, all.