Want to resign from work

kevinjohnmann

I used to be a very confident person and I have done well financial industry before but I have worked at this employer for the last 4 years have never seemingly made the grade in those 4 years I have 

Needed counselling twice due to the stress and pressure I was under 
I now feel useless and have panic attacks about making mistakes feeling I don't know what I'm doing. 
Had a graph shown at me how much my low productivity Was costing the company.
Was told about Access to Work after my first Capability Meeting which they then states was a Verbal Warning 
Once I got good at a role it was taken and outsourced to India 
Never achieved the 3 mark for a pay-rise in 4 years only achieving a 1_or n 2
Had a meeting about my disability where I Had a Cerebral Palsy spasm and a further meeting about my disability as I mentioned three not one despite being fully enclosed 
Had my probation extended 
Installed Dragon Naturally Speaking but installed the wrong one after an access to work assessment which never worked as they installed individual and not Group
Having training on different things in quick succession so I quickly forget and start making mistakes.

I struggle to take notes I can read so I feel at a disadvantage evidence wise and feel like I am in a David vs American Conglomerate Golaith situation 

I feel like the company has changed me for the worse and I really wish to resign and end it all as I know it will end up being logged as gross misconduct going down the path I am going. 

I want to take back control but I am scared I will never find another job if I did resign or won't be entitled to any help and struggle financially speaking as I really have lost my confidence and what made me successful in previous roles and I feel like I am only at the company I work for now as they haven't worked out how to let me go.

I could really do with some advice as I want this to end and want to move on with my life fining another suitable role elsewhere the other thing that worries me is that after I left my previous roles at other companies I found out I was discriminated at my previous roles as well.

I am worried for the future and desperately need some advice 

janer1967

Hi and welcome to the community 

If you are wanting to leave as you say the best option is to find another job get yourself registered with employment agencies or registered with places like indeed or total jobs,  Reed..

If you want to stay maybe get a referral to oh for a work place assessment and see if they can recommend any reasonable adjustments 

Tori_Scope

Hi @kevinjohnmann I'm really sorry to hear about the trouble you've been having at work. I can imagine that could have an effect on your physical and mental health.

If you do decide you'd like to look for other jobs, you might want to check out Scope's employment services. They can support you in getting a job that's right for you. 

Installed Dragon Naturally Speaking but installed the wrong one after an access to work assessment which never worked as they installed individual and not Group

Have you been able to speak to someone about installing the right version for the time being?

Have you spoken to ACAS before? They may be able to help you work out a plan of action, too. 

In terms of other financial support, you might find it helpful to use an online benefits calculator to help you work out what you may be entitled to if you end up leaving your current role. This could help to put your mind at ease in terms of working our what financial support you could access if you needed it. 

I now feel useless and have panic attacks about making mistakes feeling I don't know what I'm doing. 

I'm sorry to hear that it's made you feel useless, and that you're experiencing panic attacks. They're really unpleasant to say the least. You've mentioned having some counselling in the past- are you currently accessing any support for your mental health? I'd definitely encourage you to speak to your GP if you haven't already.

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Hi @kevinjohnmann

I am sorry to hear about your situation and the effect it is having on you. 

As the previous post mentions, Scope have employment services for disabled jobseekers at different stages in their employment journey.  If you would like individualised support pursuing alternative employment, Scope’s Support to Work service may be of interest. This is a free 1:1 service for disabled jobseekers actively applying for new jobs. Scope’s specialist Employment Advisers are very friendly and provide tailored support with areas including:

· Searching and applying for jobs

· Interview preparation

· Advice around disability disclosure, requesting reasonable adjustments, and transitioning into a new job.

More information can be found here:

Support to Work

Please keep in touch and let us know how you are getting on, or if there is any further assistance we can provide.