Lost - C-Ptsd - fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue - ongoing tests.

peaceofmind

Hi I’m 57 and hit a point in my life again although this is the most difficult ever (I think age related and post pandemic) after much trauma and abuse in my life that my body is collapsing under years of strain and exhaustion from many years of living in survival mode. So I’m now enforced to take stock and work hard at unravelling it all and start to look at hopes and dreams for the future and how I would like it to look. Trouble is i feel so low and unwell it’s so hard to get anywhere beyond doing the basic fundamentals of self care in the daily mundane tasks and essentials. Do others relate?  I find it so hard to give myself permission to take time to ‘indulge’ ‘ play’ ‘ even dare to hope and dream’ again after so much sadness, loss and disappointment and now feeling physically less able too. 

Just reality and honesty of where I’m at. 

SueHeath

Bless you @peaceofmind this has touched me - no advise from me because i wouldn't know were to help but i didn't want to ignore your thread/post - hopefully you will get lots of helpful comments x

peaceofmind

Thank you. I appreciate your kindness. 

Ross_Alumni

Hi @peaceofmind and welcome to the online community  

 

This is a very supportive and welcoming site to be a part of so I’m hopeful that you’ll find it to be a positive outlet. Feel free to have a look around and get involved wherever you’d like 😊 I have included below a few of the pages I’d recommend having a look through to get used to things:

• The virtual coffee lounge which is one of our categories, in which we play games and talk about general subjects such as hobbies and interests
• The recent discussions page, which shows an overview of everything happening across the community
• The categories page, which shows a full list of discussion groups on the community

If you have any questions at all then don’t hesitate to ask.

Thank you for speaking so honestly about what you have been through and how you feel. It can be difficult to open up, but often doing so can be the first step taken towards better things.

Have you discussed your situation with anybody else in order to potentially get some support? For example, if you haven't already it might be worth getting in touch with your GP to see if they can provide any support to help you manage your mental health. NHS talking therapy could be one of the options for you to consider, is it something you have taken part in before?

Additionally, you can access services like Samaritans any time on 116 123 or utilise any of the information pages on the Mind website such as this one about what you can do to help yourself cope right now.

I will shortly be sending you an email from community@scope.org.uk to see if we can support you with a couple of other items you mentioned in your post, it would be great if you could keep an eye out for it and get back to us  

peaceofmind

Thank you for your kindness and support. I appreciate your email too. Wasn’t sure where to reply so chose here for ease. I appreciate your concern. I am undergoing and aiming for further professional support however it is the support in the non therapeutic times that is often most valuable and at times when I’m on my own that is most needed to keep going. I’ll check out the other resources thank you. 

I apologise if I alarmed anyone in any way. 

Tori_Scope

There's no need to apologise, don't worry @peaceofmind The wellbeing of all members is important to us, so we just wanted to reach out to see if we can support you in any way. 

It can be frustrating when we don't get as much support at the times we need it most. Perhaps you could see whether there are any local groups or services you could join to receive support on an ongoing basis? The Hub of Hope is a useful resource to find things like that.

peaceofmind

thank you. I’ll take a look. I appreciate your kindness and support

L_Volunteer

You are welcome @peaceofmind. It is the very least you deserve. Please feel free to let us know how you get on. If we can do anything else to help, please don't hesitate to let us know 

Alex_Alumni

Hello @peaceofmind I hope you're enjoying your weekend, and I'm glad to see that you feel so supported here on the community

Did you manage to find any local support groups through Hub of Hope at all? 

peaceofmind

I had a look thank you. The majority are quite a journey for me and takes a big amount of time out, which brings huge stress and cost too with either bus or fuel although I wouldn’t drive into the city. I have been receiving 1 hour therapy at specific charity in the city but it’s proving all too much to manage with all it entails and don’t feel it’s beneficial anymore. 

I am very proactive in these decades of struggle and will always endeavour to seek out and work hard. Sadly in a phase of greater struggle and depression and feeling beyond much of my effort level and ability to manage right now however hard I try. 

I am in a queue for Community MH Team right now. Hoping this happens soon. 

Alex_Alumni

Okay, thanks for taking the time to let us know @peaceofmind we appreciate it

I can see why deciding to step back from travelling for support is a decision you've made, not only because of the costs involved, but also the toll it has on your mental health.

I am sure you do work hard to work through any struggles you are having, and that is positive, but you are also worthy of taking a break when needed. I think that's quite a healthy thing.

And I hope you can access support from the community mental health team soon as well. 

Do let us know if there's anything you feel we can lend a hand with, and keep us updated when you can.

peaceofmind

Thank you Alex for your acknowledgment and validation. 

I’ll be grateful for the local support and I hope to make more use of your services for support and chat on here. I am very appreciative of the help I get from scope with my work support lady. Just amazing. Sadly I’m not working at present but she is a constant source of help to get back to work and stay in work as best as possible.  

Tori_Scope

I'm so glad to hear that you've been finding our services so helpful @peaceofmind Thank you for the kind words.