Hi, my name is MollyMyers!

MollyMyers

Hi all. New to this forum and to communicating like this.
I was in a coercive relationship for 22 years that became violent when he left. My daughters then told me he was abusing them. My world fell apart. I look back and cannot believe how I existed. Im still "fighting" in Courts, lost my job and career and fight everyday to try and work out what normality is. Mental health teams have given me counselling which has helped. Im due to see a NHS psychiatrist having seen someone privately who simply says I am depressed. I have WomensAid support too and attended some programs. I dont fit into the predicted mold as I was a v succesful professional. At work I was a brilliant. But at home I ate on the floor, had my money taken away etc. I hot called names etc. I dont feel as ill as a year ago when I wanted an exit strategy. I dont feel suicidal at all. But its trying to make sense of a million jelly babies thrown above my head. I cant even catch them. I dont know if I have a question! Thanks

Cher_Alumni

Hi @MollyMyers and a warm welcome to our online community. I'm glad you found us and felt comfortable sharing your story; I'm so sorry to hear about what you've been through. It sounds like a heck of a lot to deal with and I'm glad you are accessing support from a NHS psychologist and WomensAid - they are a brilliant organisation.

I'm going to send you an email shortly just to double check a few things and see if we can offer anything further. But please do keep talking to us if you find it beneficial. We have members from all walks of life who are great listeners and very empathetic.

The analogy of having a million jelly babies thrown at you and trying to make sense of it all is very powerful - you can only catch a few at a time, so take it slowly, be gentle with yourself and don't lose heart on those wobbly days. You're working through a lot so be compassionate with your inner dialogue and talk to yourself the same way you would a good friend 

Please look out for that email and take care. I hope to talk again soon!

janer1967

Hi and welcome to the community 

I'm sorry you and your children have had to go through this it must have been and still be difficult 

You have already come a long way 

Sandy_123

Hi @MollyMyers welcome from me too. Here is a very supportive forum, that is safe for you to use. I'm sorry that you and your children have been through such difficulties. It's good that you are getting support from councilling and other agencies, take things slowly to catch those jelly babies.