Medicated aged 12 - Struggling to cope with my BPD

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confusednewt

Hi,

I was diagnosed with BPD around 5/6 years ago. Everything fits me to a T and I definitely have it. 

Since diagnosis, I’ve never received ANY support for my mental health, psychotherapy/counselling or anything of the sort, all that’s happened is my medication had continually been increased (to an amount now which I do not want to be on) and changed more times than I can remember.

no matter how many times I go to my GP (and I’ve been to all different people) and said hey I don’t think this is working bc I still feel as depressed/suicidal etc so please can we change this or can I just come off it they don’t listen they just increase and send me away.

I'm at the point now, I’m 28 and I’ve been on anti-depressants since aged 12 so (16 ish years) and I don’t know who I am without being medicated, but also I can strongly see how being on medication from such a young age probably didn’t help my brain with developing and also my body build a huge tolerance to it.

I’ve tried a mixture of SSRI’s and SNRI’s below: 
-Fluoxetine
-Sertraline
-Mirtazipine (currently on)
-Venlafaxine (currently on)
-Duloxetine 
- Propranolol for my panic attacks (Trying to reduce as became addictive)
 but haven’t tried anything else. I’m hoping to find others with a BPD diagnosis to share what’s worked for them.

Thanks so much,
newt 

Alex_Alumni

Hello @confusednewt and thanks for reaching out, I'm sorry it's been a while since anyone has responded to your post, and I hope you found the above reply helpful

I'm sorry to hear about how you've been feeling, we'd like to offer some support with this so keep an eye out for an email from community@scope.org.uk a little later today. 

Let us know if you need help with anything in the meantime.

Alex