I need to rant, I'm fed up in my journey..
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Anyway here goes
- Always struggled with mental health since being a kid in terms of anxiety and avoidance and very shy. As a teenager and after the childhood trauma my brother put on me, I was severely anxious and very depressed. I was on Prozac at 16 and I was only diagnosed with depression because I kept complaining of physical complaints.
- Had mental health problems throughout my life despite working from 18-34. My colleagues knew I was bad with my mental health and friends did. Always anxious and avoidance, social phobia, wanting to use taxis instead of public transport.
- Aged 34, November 2020, starts having seizures that were non-epileptic in nature or dissociative, whatever name you want to give them, they're awful.
Anyway, I recently seen my medical records and I noted one of my GP's literally asked the CHEST X RAY SERVICE, not to let me have an x-ray because I was health anxious. Like, really? How is that fair. I was struggling with wheezing and light headedness at that point and had childhood asthma. Absolutely horrendous thing to read.
Living with FND and NEAD, other patients like myself struggle with the new symptoms and challenges we face as part of our condition. To be coined hypochondriacs is absolutely awful. How about care for patients in a compassionate and appropriate way and maybe we won't need to keep seeking reassurance or how about neurologists deliver a service for users of those conditions, so they're not left in the dark and sent away with a website: http://www.neurosymptoms.org - which ironically, when I told the other GP in the surgery that I didn't attend the GP practice recently because I looked up my own symptoms, he said you shouldn't do that. Okay, so why do neurologists and GP's share this information for FND/NEAD patients?
To top it all off, I then had an ADHD appointment with a psychiatrist who completely and utterly dismissed my difficulties. The letter he sent said I struggle with self-harm and recurrent suicidal thoughts but he felt I wasn't in an episode of depression because I was 'hyperkinetic', I asked him why did you describe me like that? I was highly anxious and he said, yes it means anxious. So I said why not describe myself like that? So in that month I self-harmed twice and had tons of suicidal thoughts, didn't bother to look after myself, carried on giving up my hobbies and interests, didn't see any friends or family but yeah, I guess I'm not depressed huh? Pretty sure the DSM manual has that as it's criteria.
I appreciate I am challenging doctors and psychiatrists but when you are attacked with stigma, prejudice and mistreatment. Or denied your right and opportunity to the care you deserve. Doctors are wonderful people but people like myself have paid into a system to put them in their seats. I deserve compassion and care despite my ongoing issues.
I am now literally afraid to even bother speaking to my GP practice. This break down in relationship and care, I am absolutely shocked to the core.
Comments
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You have been really brave and strong in sharing this with us @bluefox. I can really hear that things are difficult for you at the moment.
It sounds like you recognise the difficulties you have experienced and continue to experience.
However, you challenge some things because everyone has experienced them. Though, you acknowledge that you experienced some additional difficulties.
I can hear that the key to this is the lack of help and support you feel you have received. Namely, because your difficulties seem to have been dismissed at times.
At the very least, you deserve to feel heard, cared for, helped, and supported rather than stigmatised, prejudiced, mistreated, and denied.
In an ideal world, what would help and support look like for you at the moment? Please don’t hesitate to let us know if we can do anything to support you.
We are all here for you and listening to you. Take care for now and we will look forward to, hopefully, hearing from you again soon
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We all need to get things off of our chest sometimes @bluefox
I hope that the weight feels a little lighter today?
So in that month I self-harmed twice and had tons of suicidal thoughts, didn't bother to look after myself, carried on giving up my hobbies and interests, didn't see any friends or family but yeah, I guess I'm not depressed huh?Are you still feeling this way?0 -
Tori_Scope said:We all need to get things off of our chest sometimes @bluefox
I hope that the weight feels a little lighter today?
So in that month I self-harmed twice and had tons of suicidal thoughts, didn't bother to look after myself, carried on giving up my hobbies and interests, didn't see any friends or family but yeah, I guess I'm not depressed huh?Are you still feeling this way?0
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