How is your day going?

Hello Amaya_Ringo 🙂 sorry you had to stupidley early day ,

glad you finished earlier and you are either enjoying your new team or new job or both,

don't know much about your story hun but if you have troubles in crowds or anxiety issues well done for catching that bus as having these issues and doing that is a big thing that not many of us can do without mobility, anxiety, or cognitive issues playing on our mind or body.

If you have non of the issue I mentioned well done any your helping our planet by not pumping out more petrol that needs to be in our atmosphere as the buses run anyway.

Hope you enjoyed that cake 🙂 glad you enjoyed the sun yesterday weather was fabulous

Grumpy1314

You deserve better hun both my long term ex s was hard work in one way or the other, sorry you missed your medication time I'm the same when I get nattering the one spend his money on childish thing when we was in alot of debt and he had thoughts of doing things to himself and others he was under the mental health bracket the really serious one but I only found out after he did something stupid what register he was on.

he always put me down actually wrote a poem after we split cried my eyes out was my first long term relationship and I thought I loved him and beloved him even with what he'd put me and himself though anyway won't get to much into this put the poem might inspire others. He did have his plus side money wise before he reigned and went on the sick for his mental health. We'd always pool our money together pay the bills then what was left we'd split 50/50,

Step out of the darkness and into the light. But you wouldn't know darkness unless there was light.

For it it was always dark all you'd know is depression, degradation and despair and if there was only light you wouldn't know luck you were.

He always put me down so much called, me stupid idiot fat,!!!

but there'll be no one now to cook him tea, to give him hugs to love him as much as me.

Now I've put him in the past now the futures bright at last, for those goals he said I was to stupid to achieve,

I'm not stupid and I will succeed.

So tell me who's who's the stupid one now!!!!

Anyway the second was the complete opposite seemed god at the start then when we moved in together everything changed money wise was like his money was his mine was to pay bills and shopping if there was anything left he'd find an excuse that he needed that also lije I had a work do coat less than twenty pounds ohhhh we can't afford that but would kick off if I said he couldn't have the latest xbox game out that cost fifty four pounds.

He'd make me feel guilty if I went next door for a cuppa and a chat he'd say after an argument go on then tell the neighbours everything ect. Made me feel like I couldn't even talk about my feelings outside the home I was so upset I'd storm off without any socks or shoes outside just to calm down obviously upset feeling I can't even tell anyone 😢 but when he put his hands on me that was it I threw him out there was police involvement, we'd broken up on numerous occasions he'd always worm his way back in. But that time hell no!!!

took a restraining order and a pin notice to finally get him gone, and was still in and out of family court because we have a child and he refused to give him back after contact, thank god for his current fiance also got his sights off me. But she paid a heavft price lost her kids because of him.

Anyway brighter side we're better off without them

Morning All, been up for over 24 hours without any sleep! Missed all my meds last night which wasn’t good. Then I’ve gone to have a wash and a shave, to go into town, then I’ve sat down and the Long Wuhan Plague Fatigue kicked in 🥱 done 20 laps on the F1 Game to take my mind off things. Just ordered some breakfast, too exhausted to cook. Decided I’m going to give the Mental Health Team a chance to call me back today, but if they don’t they will be getting a call from Victor Meldrew!

It’s ok, it was nice to have a natter with like minded people 😊 I’m safe now that I’m doped up with painkillers and other meds. Just got a heavy metal radio station on at the moment which helps clear the old cobwebs. My neighbour below is in her late 70s and likes AC⚡️DC, although she does like the Rolling Stones who personally I don’t rate.

Cold here 2 degrees

Sun trying to get out

I was up a few times last night

Good Luck with your appointment Nolan, hope you’re all ready for it and your nerves are ok. I had to have a video call to confirm bank changes due to me stating I didn’t want a physical appointment due to my high anxiety levels and not wanting to go into the city centre. All the best mucker.