How is your day going?

good night all, time for me to get some shut eye

I know how you all feel

I've had more than my fair share of **** in my life

I too have had 2 failed marriages

I struggle with money bills etc

Life is tough

Thank you for your kind words 💚 I’ve spoken to the receptionist and the earliest appointment they have given me for my mental health is in just over two weeks, so obviously they don’t see mental health as a priority service or condition. I’ve been asleep until just after eight this morning, I’ve woken up and instead of taking my normal meds at this time, I’ve taken my evening meds - antidepressants, painkillers and stomach meds as I just simply want to be asleep and not awake: just taking thinks one second at a time, I just hope the court accepts my petition, with the evidence that I’ve also tried to find my ex, through email’s and also social media. I had her snotty friend sending me a message, stating why tell everyone her private business as my solicitor could do such and such a form to trace her, she works in a solicitors as a secretary and her daughter works in another department working with divorces and had been in my ex’s ear about a divorce not long after we split. I think there in for a rude awakening that I’ve actually got the intelligence, mental capacity and compassion to file for divorce myself (no2 I’ve sorted myself but also done it within the new framework of no blame on either party. I’ve also filed for legal aid as well which I’m hoping will help me further to: I think what my ex wanted to do, was to file for a divorce, blaming everything on me and my mental health by saying I was emotionally abusive, that I wasn’t right in the head and that my ex wife was scared of me. Just wouldn’t of surprised me one bit. I think if things go through I’ll have caught them all off guard and with there troosers around there ankles! I just want closure now and to firmly close and bolt the door to my past, my past life and memories to. I’m going to save up to get an assistance dog or to get my name on a list for a charity that supplies one. As I miss my old big daft whippet x staffy. I’m also considering adopting a small parrot as well for company. I’m going to be putting some money to one side to get some garden supplies and then save to get a handyman in to do the decorating for me as I don’t feel safe doing it myself.

Good evening everyone.

Same here weather wise.

Ello Ello Ello What’s Do We Have Here Then…. That’s my police impression 🚔

I’ll leave the real Policing to my late Uncle, former Surrey Constabulary & Police Constable Derek Dean 1948-1999 he is directly to the right of Santa Claus.

I’ve just woken up after over 7 hours of sleep, still empty, numb and washed out to say the least.

I’m going to organise getting a dog when I come back from Cape Verde in 2026 which will be 3 years on from my last hound of baskerville’s. Will be just nice having some life in a very quiet, cold and lonely flat to say the least.

I’ve looked in to getting a parrot by speaking to a local rescue organisation, I’m going to look at getting a Senegal Parrot, small sized, don’t make a lot of noise and have bags of personality. Going for a Parrot that isn’t a Budgie or Cockatiel is better because they don’t produce dander which is good for my breathing, it’s one of the things I discussed with the rescue society.

I’ve just got to try putting one foot in front of the other rather than stagnating which is harder said than done. Just have to keep saying to myself you can do this and you’ve got this. 💚