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Hi everyone, it’s a very dark and lonely time at the moment. I’ve decided to reach out to my sister after thinking for a while on something. I inherited some precious items belonging to our grandparents, As I’ve not seen my family for nearly ten years, no longer have any friends in my life and have now become a recluse. I’ve decided it’s time for me to atone for many many poor choices and inability to physically control my emotions and behaviour over the last 42 years. I’ve decided to send my grandparents items back to my parents so as they can be handed down to my Sisters two girls and remain in the family where they belong. I don’t deserve to call them my nieces and it wouldn’t be right for me to do so. It’s one last goodbye thing I can do in life, after leaving many scars, a lot of hurt and many people being ashamed of me in both Oldham and Chesterfield. I’m just going to live out, however many years I have left in isolation and have already started paying for a non attendance cremation which will be active in two years. I’ve said my goodbye to my Sister now and also said goodbye to my family via the message. I’m going to do the same with my ex wife and tell her that I’ll apply for a conditional order for the divorce in September and finally a final order. I’ve made my bed and I’ll have to lay in it for however many years I have left until the day I’m nothing but a pile of scattered ashes in a nameless crem in Derby. This is also going to be my final time speaking on here to, I wish each and everyone all the best with there lives, thank you for advice and support and time on here. Could admin please delete my profile please as once I sign off here, it will become dormant.

Morning all.

Really

I ring them after 12 30

I have to meds from pharmacy

It's not helping that I have an online friend in canada never met but she had very strong veiws on meds and Dr's Sge won't take any meds

Belives in homeopathic treatment only

The nurse told me they don't work complimentary therapies

This so cold freind says all the medical professionals including vets are out to kill us and I cannot take the Dr's meds or I will die

I'm. Very stressed and so scared I will die in my sleep from heart attack like mum

I read a message from the chat that once you get money backdated. They will be asking for bank statements a year later. It came.a lot of money together . So I have to splash the money in a years time.

Bad times could happen and that my money is very welcome. .and it is their fault. Anyway I will see what happen.

But I live in constant anxiety. This should make me feel better but I am feeling quite the opposite.

Morning all.

I didn't wake up until 11 am

I was so tired due to sleepless nights.

That's wonderful

Oh was I. I didn't realise

Hello, my day is going ok. I've been really anxious, but it's actually calmed down a bit now. I went to Art group and that helped. I got really focussed on my artwork and it gave me a bit of a break from thinking and worrying.

Popped into Lidl on the way home and got some cherry ice cream. :)

I fancy ice cream now,but this hotel is too far from the shops.