Getting a grip of myself

Hi folks this is fus here well a lot has happened since I last wrote my woes

I told you about my sudden out the blue episode one minute I was walking next im paralysed from the waist downwards things went downhill pretty quick a 4 wk wait to see my doctor a 36 hour wait in ae a inconclusive mri scan appointment to see spinal surgeon August 26 well things came to ahead i was not thinking right to cut a long story short I got caught attempted suicide yes me the indestructible fus reduced to tears and bad thoughts

I had some amazing help and understanding from crisis management and some other organisations I decided to admit myself to a local mental health hospital as a informal guest

The hospital in question was not really set up to look after someone like me wheelchair bound it was difficult a doctor checked me over and was concerned about the timing from walking to wheelchair so he sent me to hospital for another mri this time they did a full length spinal mri and low and behold there L9 L10 the disc was trapped and completely trapped my spinal cord i had surgery yesterday surgery went well not sure about the reboot im still dead from the waist down double incontinent they say give it time thats a hard request

Not sure what happens next physio and spinal rehab im up for it now I'm starting a new way of life the demons are behind me