How is your day going?

my mood and mental state fluctuates a lot. i am feeling rather hopeless right now. i want to get better but i do not feel it will happen. i am very down because even though i blame my last job for my back problems etc…. and i could not do that job ever again. i am too traumatized to get back to work. and my health is downhill. soon time to go to bed.. but dreading for another day tomorrow…. the place i go on thursdays is on holidays so i will probably try to go out but i dont like public transport. i will try to go when it is not too busy and back as well before rush hour .. i am meaning to spend a few hours outside. all is if it is a good weather i mean no rain is enough for me. i will see.. but maybe tomorrow i will feel awful.. i will see.. i hope i will be able to sleep. but i was ok a couple of hours ago and now i feel rather down.. i hate this feeling that fluctuates so much. anyway. maybe a couple of films will cheer me up a bit…. good evening, good night and til tomorrow.. i think is enough with technology for today….

@Elvisdog i would not worry too much about it. you only have to do and inform them but you can not control the outcome so i hope it will be ok. i am scared about everything as well.. if you report a change something might happen but maybe not much….

i tend to go to bed before 12 … and up before 7…… i sleep so so .. but i feel going to bed at 4 to wake up at 8.30 seems too little sleep…. it wil be ok with the benefits…

morning all. i feel very anxious… and down.. but i am doing some spring cleaning. throwing stuff little by little. but i can not stop thinking and i am scared. But i hope if i declutter a bit maybe it will improve my mental health… But now i feel like well another day. awful. i hope it will ease… i do not think i will go out as the weather looks bad. it will rain soon.

i dont want to rush up myself on decluttering. but so far i did another bit today.little by little. but i feel i have to throw away things even if i feel a bit attach to it ..

i was given books cassette players etc.. i have so much stuff accumulated over decades… i need to declutter and organize. but this is not an easy task.

even if the sun is kinda popping out i will stay at home i have no energy really. every day is the same and prospects of improvement are slim and unlikely. anyway i hope it will get a bit better.

i guess this is going to take a bit.. i dont want to throw away music and stuff. but i manage to do a bit. and tomorrow maybe i will do a bit more… once the boxes and other stuff are out i start will start with the drawers and wardrobe…. getting rid off stuff if it is not good enough etc…that will be hard as it has some attachment as it was given or gifted by people or friends..

weather is really bad. it is raining. and this weather makes me even more depressed… anyway. i think i will stop today sorting stuff and tomorrow maybe i will do a little bit more.

Sky news showed the prossecion

Sharon looks frail

I know how's Sge feels

I've lost so many relatives

Never gets easier

Watching tv

Was heartbreaking gish he was a fabulous personality the house was always full of laughter shouting lol imagine the silence he was all of his family world I don't think Sharon will last without him true true soul mates I never listened to his music before but loved mamma I'm coming home had me in tears I likes them in The Osbornes real great loss what a life he had I feel so much for all left behind 💔

Well done all at your own pace