How is your day going?

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  • Grumpy1314
    Grumpy1314 Online Community Member Posts: 300 Empowering

    Hi Rosie, just been really unsettled the since last week due to the two meetings I had and the same outcome I get all the time. Just going to rest up today, heads rotating at warp speed and I’m exhausted.

  • Rosie_Scope
    Rosie_Scope Posts: 6,416 Scope Online Community Coordinator

    That sounds really tough @Grumpy1314. Rest sounds like a good idea, take care of yourself as much as possible ☺️

  • luvpink
    luvpink Online Community Member Posts: 2,573 Championing

    Its dull, a bit of rain and wind out there but I'm going out this afternoon to meet friends who I meet every Thursday.

  • Catherine21
    Catherine21 Posts: 7,356 Championing

    I think he's had enough of me I feel such despair and so vunerable I've had ozzy Osborne song on loop in my head constantly constant noise spoke to psych she made me so much worse she's opened everything I'm paranoid think bad things going to happen all the time I wish I could just be like people who get up go to work socialise it's impossible for me I've tried everything over the years it's impossible for Mr to go out most days it's ingrained sorry going on I wish I didn't feel so much it's my daughter dogs keep me going but it is really hard to see any hope or future

  • Rosie_Scope
    Rosie_Scope Posts: 6,416 Scope Online Community Coordinator

    That all sounds really overwhelming @Catherine21. It's good you've got your dogs and your lovely daughter keeping you going when things get tough. While we might not all have the same conditions I think a lot of us will be able to empathise with feeling grief for a life we wish we could live. It can be really exhausting living with chronic issues and hardly ever getting a break from things. Take care of yourself as much as you can 💛

  • Amberpearl
    Amberpearl Online Community Member Posts: 2,863 Championing

    I woke up at 2 and 5

  • Amberpearl
    Amberpearl Online Community Member Posts: 2,863 Championing

    Windy 18 degrees

    Part sunny part cloudy

  • Grumpy1314
    Grumpy1314 Online Community Member Posts: 300 Empowering
  • Ranald
    Ranald Online Community Member Posts: 2,387 Championing
    edited August 7

    I did this because I don't want to listen to any more conspiracy theories and gobbledygook in general. He and his family live 500 miles away, so this makes it easier.

    He was obviously up visiting our parents, and came to my door on his last day up here. I've not heard from them since it happened, and I imagine they are sulking. It seems decades of experience of me hasn't made them think of changing tactics!

    I don't know what they think, but i imagine they can't see past his degree. He must be right about 'chem trails", covid, moon landings, you name it! I don't want to hear all that gibberish, and certainly not in my own house.

  • Ranald
    Ranald Online Community Member Posts: 2,387 Championing
  • durhamjaide2001
    durhamjaide2001 Scope Member Posts: 14,334 Championing

    good evening everyone

  • Santosha12
    Santosha12 Online Community Member Posts: 1,949 Championing

    I get it, I'm probably one of the least tolerant when it comes to conspiracy theories and make no apologies whatsoever for that! Heard them all, incl the 9/11, Holocaust etc etc. Some particularly vile views too so at least I don't have to listen to them. At least on here can 'scroll on' although not so much of that now! 😊 Thank goodness we live in a house and can lock the door eh ?!

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Online Community Member Posts: 414 Empowering

    evening.. my medication sometimes works sometimes does not.. very frustrating.. so i forgot a few days ago and took it late. and yes i was still up at 4 am.. but even when taking it at a time i think it will work sometimes does not. i take it before 7 pm. so with some luck by 11 pm works. .. But tired of medication, tired of people at the pharmacy keep asking do you pay for the medication when they know me by name. for the time being is not going to change so do not keep asking the question.. and looking at me as if i should pay for it.. i am so sick of it. i had a not bad day but it is getting more and more stressful to deal with people. i feel more vulnerable among people etc.. i distrust them. i went to Ikea and carrying that bag did stress me out. it was not too busy but when i was on the queue there it was those machines.. i hate them. there were two scans one that was in a kinda pistol and the one in the machine and i could not make it work. thank goodness a lady helped me out and scanned the whole thing even though i told her i am ok thanks.. she just did everything to the point of the tapping the credit card.. Sometimes you find nice and understanding people.. i feel she knew i was not having a good time in that very moment. and then took the bus and back home. now i am rather anxious. not because of the experience at ikea. i enjoyed. i probably would go for a smaller shopping experience and just buy a couple of things.. i know anxious because when alone i always overthink about the what if … and what if.. sorry for the long message.. i keep "talking"…. have a nice evening and a restful night….

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Online Community Member Posts: 414 Empowering

    i feel rather bad right now. anyway i will try to watch a couple of films and hope for the best. I forgot to take my medicine and i took one hour later i hope it will be ok. at least i did not forget all together… or i remember when it was too late.. the first only once happened the second it a few times.. anyway. this is really a torture… tomorrow i hope to be ok as i had some volunteering … But i just feel hopeless… my mental health and physical health is taking over me and it is rather difficult to cope with it.

  • westpest
    westpest Online Community Member Posts: 24 Listener

    Evening everyone, I totally understand being anxious talking to either DWP or ADP regarding pip or esa etc. I get exactly the same. I worry every time I see a letter from them. I feel I have to constantly prove myself. I feel like Iam begging for a handout. That sounds crazy because my national insurance record shows I have 47 full years. I’ve always been independent and never imagined I would be in this position. My husband has Parkinson’s and dementia with Lewy bodies and then on top of that I have my own problems. I know my medical records show I have fibromyalgia, diabetes type 2, non alcoholic cirrhosis of the liver, stenosis of the spine, a plantar fibroma, bone spurs on my hips along with impingement, depression and anxiety and osteoarthritis. All this sounds like loads of things that have been diagnosed but I still panic and worry that I won’t be believed. It feels sometimes the system is set up to make sure you fail. I recently asked for a copy of my records from DWP and was totally shocked by the notes taken by the first verbal assessment that I had. I get brain fog here and there and totally forget the next word. However as this didn’t happen on the call it was noted that I was able to verbally communicate and didn’t need any promoting. I was asked how many mg I had to take of one of my tablets? Because I got up and got the box, it was noted that I was able to stand and walk with no issues. However I had to finish working as I was making loads of mistakes and I couldn’t stop making them. The stress was horrendous and I was told by occupational health that I wasn’t fit to be in work (I was off sick for 6 moths, my company refused to accept the OHS comments and said I needed to return to my full time role and do my job as per my job description)as I was highly stressed. I had horrific pains in my neck and down my left arm. After having an MRI that showed I had a prolapsed disc in my neck which was trapping my nerves. If I wanted to go ahead with surgery they would have to go in through the front of my neck but there was no guarantee they could resolve the problems. The results didn’t come through until after the assessment call. I just feel I wasn’t believed and what should I have done. I worked for my last company for 23 years and feel totally let down by them. Then to have these things written about me even though I had always work and gave every company 100%. Non of the though made any difference. I still wasn’t believed. So now I am a total wreck as soon as they contact me. The date I am actually allowed to retire is 2029. I don’t have a clue how I will cope. I don’t have relatives, nor friends, neither does my husband. I just don’t know how I will get through the next four years. Life in general is pretty ****. There’s no way of getting a break or a holiday. My husbands refuses help from anyone else. I have never been interested in politics but I panic things are only going to get worse as there are so many people claiming benefits now. The whole thing worries me constantly.

  • Bluebell21
    Bluebell21 Online Community Member, Scope Member Posts: 13,165 Championing

    Good morning everyone.

  • Amberpearl
    Amberpearl Online Community Member Posts: 2,863 Championing

    Good morning all

    Sun is out

    Still waiting for the cardiology appointment

  • durhamjaide2001
    durhamjaide2001 Scope Member Posts: 14,334 Championing

    good morning everyone

  • MD1955
    MD1955 Online Community Member Posts: 10 Listener

    watched the Johnny Vegas programme….well worth watching although he had lots of help even then he ‘disappeared’ for a while. His Art kept him going. But you can replace Art with anything you’re interested in. Last year 2024 was ‘lost’ for me just staying in bed. In the end I just determined to go to sleep and get up at ‘normal’ times…..medication helped though. I still get tired or ‘fatigued’ as I’ve been told to call it. I take an interest in most things & realise how ‘mad’ or crazy everyone is really. I’m 70 this year but keep up with everything even if I think it completely bonkers….like Nigel F*****……and personalities/celebrities or Influencers/extremely wealthy people etc etc….all just needing attention. The world is completely crazy….just take an interest in what you like & ignore the rest…..you won’t miss anything really. Don’t get scared….the worst is unlikely to happen. Demand action from your GP and keep knocking on their door until they do something. 🌹