How is your day going?

Amberpearl

I'm. Watching TV with milo

Schildpad

my mood and mental state fluctuates a lot. i am feeling rather hopeless right now. i want to get better but i do not feel it will happen. i am very down because even though i blame my last job for my back problems etc…. and i could not do that job ever again. i am too traumatized to get back to work. and my health is downhill. soon time to go to bed.. but dreading for another day tomorrow…. the place i go on thursdays is on holidays so i will probably try to go out but i dont like public transport. i will try to go when it is not too busy and back as well before rush hour .. i am meaning to spend a few hours outside. all is if it is a good weather i mean no rain is enough for me. i will see.. but maybe tomorrow i will feel awful.. i will see.. i hope i will be able to sleep. but i was ok a couple of hours ago and now i feel rather down.. i hate this feeling that fluctuates so much. anyway. maybe a couple of films will cheer me up a bit…. good evening, good night and til tomorrow.. i think is enough with technology for today….

Elvisdog

@Schildpad it's very difficult im struggling myself again, my son who has Autism and Neurodivergent's has started an apprenticeship, which I'm really pleased about. But I thought I'd done all the right thing's informing his UC lcw talking to his job centre advisor but now ive found out I need to inform my UC as well. So im panicking again about benefits.

Im like you wanting to watch something on tv to get some calm. Im up until 3 4am every night then up at 8.30am for my carer. I watch American seasons, ive watched all the vampire diaries and the origins. Im currently watching Chicago fire, med and pd as well as the 911 seasons and reacher. I can't switch my brain off otherwise.

Schildpad

@Elvisdog i would not worry too much about it. you only have to do and inform them but you can not control the outcome so i hope it will be ok. i am scared about everything as well.. if you report a change something might happen but maybe not much….

i tend to go to bed before 12 … and up before 7…… i sleep so so .. but i feel going to bed at 4 to wake up at 8.30 seems too little sleep…. it wil be ok with the benefits…

Elvisdog

@Schildpad thank you. It's like you say it's not enough sleep, im being tested for ADHD, only because my family think I have it, im not sure, I can't switch off or get myself in a calm mood because everything changes with the flip of a coin. I think im ok and managing then I don't know if I'm coming or going, on top of dealing with the diagnoses I have, we have to continue with trying to deal with all the other upheaval happening. Oh well time for me to watch Chicago med. I hope you get a good night rest.

Grumpy1314

Tonight I’ve hung out the White Flag! Just given up fighting and chucked in the towel now. After being let go by counselling due to my BPD, then given wrong advice by Mental Health Team about a Service that hasn’t been around for two years, just means I’m back at Square One again. I honestly don’t have a care in the world about myself anymore, I’ll just keep taking the tablets each day, alongside all the other concoctions I have to take daily for the other conditions I have to fight each day. I’ve just got no fight in me anymore. I’m just going to stay hidden inside my front door away from the world. Just what is the point in fighting, challenging, speaking up or wanting help from an utterly failed system that means that those of us that don’t fit into the high risk category just fall through the cracks and into the sewer! I’ve just got will to live, as I’m like my Grandparents who were the parents of the so called woman who gave birth to me alongside the perpetual failure she married in 78! Both of my grandparents I take after died at 55 & 57 respectively so that’s good news for me. Thankfully my wooden box is booked and ready for gas mark 11!

Holly_Scope

https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/1053884#Comment_1053884

Oh it was so sad seeing her yesterday wasn't it. My heart was breaking for her. They were definitely soul mates and she must be so lost without him. 😔💔

durhamjaide2001

Hi everyone how is everyone doing

Schildpad

morning all. i feel very anxious… and down.. but i am doing some spring cleaning. throwing stuff little by little. but i can not stop thinking and i am scared. But i hope if i declutter a bit maybe it will improve my mental health… But now i feel like well another day. awful. i hope it will ease… i do not think i will go out as the weather looks bad. it will rain soon.

i dont want to rush up myself on decluttering. but so far i did another bit today.little by little. but i feel i have to throw away things even if i feel a bit attach to it ..

i was given books cassette players etc.. i have so much stuff accumulated over decades… i need to declutter and organize. but this is not an easy task.

even if the sun is kinda popping out i will stay at home i have no energy really. every day is the same and prospects of improvement are slim and unlikely. anyway i hope it will get a bit better.

durhamjaide2001

at least you have managed to get a bit done

Grumpy1314

tiring one, stressful and forgetful

Schildpad

i guess this is going to take a bit.. i dont want to throw away music and stuff. but i manage to do a bit. and tomorrow maybe i will do a bit more… once the boxes and other stuff are out i start will start with the drawers and wardrobe…. getting rid off stuff if it is not good enough etc…that will be hard as it has some attachment as it was given or gifted by people or friends..

weather is really bad. it is raining. and this weather makes me even more depressed… anyway. i think i will stop today sorting stuff and tomorrow maybe i will do a little bit more.

luvpink

I woke up feeling exhausted today but I am making the effort and going out to meet friends later.

Amberpearl

https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/1054119#Comment_1054119

Sky news showed the prossecion

Sharon looks frail

I know how's Sge feels

I've lost so many relatives

Never gets easier

Amberpearl

I've banged my leg on the table yesterday and I think a bruise is coming up. Hurts

Still no cardiology appointment

Amberpearl

Watching tv

Ranald

Raining here, glad grass cutter got done before it started.

Elvisdog

Good afternoon peeps sunny 🌞 and breezy here in Birmingham today.

Catherine21

https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/1054119#Comment_1054119

Was heartbreaking gish he was a fabulous personality the house was always full of laughter shouting lol imagine the silence he was all of his family world I don't think Sharon will last without him true true soul mates I never listened to his music before but loved mamma I'm coming home had me in tears I likes them in The Osbornes real great loss what a life he had I feel so much for all left behind 💔

Albus_Scope

I paid for a virtual ticket and tshirt for the gig as Black Sabbath will always be the fathers of modern metal and hold a special place in my heart. Ozzy did a lot of good in his later life, but he certainly did some nasty things in his time. But I'll still miss him.

I do feel for Sharron, they were the closest I've seen to actual soul mates in real life. I had to turn off the funeral procession, seeing the family all crying was too much for lil old me.